I've come to a conclusion with only sleeping less then an hour of sleep last night.. And at 8:05 this evening.which in all i've been up for almost 24 hours straight... I'm the most crankiest person known to earth.. I keep snapping at everyone, and Everything...But that less then one hour was so0o0o0o worth it... =)

Portuguese!

ahhh..Well today and last night i have no complaints what so ever.. Last night went over to Andrew's and watched some kick ass movies.. =)  And then today went to work.. then my dad gave me some mula to go winter shopping being that i have no fuckin' winter clothes.. goddamn it.. so i did that.. and bought two pairs of Jeans and the fucking cutest, bomber shirt/jacket...o'snap...Anywho..

Things to look forward to this week... Friday possibly another Bon Fire with Tyler... Then Sat.. Supposely going to the Anti flag show with Tyler.. Then Going to Chris's B-day party.. in which the infamous Signal Faded will be attending.. RoCk!

Things not to look forward to...Getting my wisdom teeth pulled all fucking 4.. ouch. and then..Exams on Thursday.. I dunno how i'm going to talk at my Oral exam for philosophy.. It's going to be quite a site.. =)

Metropolis

I Forgot the fucking highlight.. Me and Lisa going to a Gay club.. It was so0o fucking Funny..We will suceed one evening..goddamn 21 and up shit..

Frezzin' my Freakin' YoYo's off..

Tonight was as cold as my fucking heart.. and me wearing a skirt did not help.. And the fact that i had two jackets on and a scarf did not help either. But S'mores were outta this world..absolutely amazing And St.Pete this time was a better experience then last time.. The Dali museum i will not comment on.. quite odd.

Taco Bell. KFC was the funniest shit ever with me and Lisa we literally saw Santa Clause.. and took pictures of it.. I'll post them when i get them developed it was so hilarious.. but i'm off to bed.. Work tomorrow, then possibly hangin' out w/ a friend....Goodnight...

 Chadly7150 [3:30 AM]:  u wanna fuck?
 RoXy336953 [3:31 AM]:  i want you to Fuck off how bout that.
 Chadly7150 [3:31 AM]:  lol
 Chadly7150 [3:31 AM]:  tru

....fucking classic loser right here..

Set aSidE your bRokEn hEartEd...

Tonight was probably one of the better nights i have had in a while.. I hung out with people who are into the same things.. and It was just all around good.. And tomorrow me and Lisa are actually going to go to the Dali Musuem and then to this Bon fire.. fucking going to stuff my face with s'mores. oh yes...And I finally have someone to go to the Anti-flag show with.. Thank you Tyler. anywho so far it's been pretty good.. I'm no longer Bitter about a certain subject, and me n Lisa actually had people call us to do things. instead of fucking vice versa.Made our night..=) I Love Good friends around me, and good alcohol.. and Good times.. Fucking Thats what life is about...

Tomorrow consist of.. picking up check, looking for my checkered shoes, Dali Museum, getting new plugs, and perhaps out-fit?. and Bon Fire..S'mores.

P.S. I Hate Denny's with a fire of a thousand suns...

GoBbLe GoBbLE..

well last night was decent.. It's odd how you find out stuff from people when there drunk/drinking..hahaha.. Lisa knows what i'm talking about.. But it was good night none the less...Todays thanksgiving and i'm full as hell.. blah.. Well now i'm going over to Lisa's for pie.. "Where's my pie?!!" See you sucka's later.....

love actually..

Don't you love that feeling when u first meet someone, and you get all mushy inside, just the thought of them brings a smile to you face, or you see that they are calling and it makes your heart jump, the anticipation of a first kiss or first holding them in your arms..when nothing else in the world seems like it could go wrong, that just simply seeing them smile turns the worse of days upside down.. you feel those first sparks of love in you, your addicted to them, Every love song on the radio reminds you of them..you let go of all ambition, you sleep to dream of them.. You forget about all the hurt you've gone through in the past.. and expect the best from them. You tell yourself this is it...

"These past few weeks I've been confused sometimes I wonder if I'm better off alone.you fall in love.they break your heart.you fall in love again its never ending.".. Theres so many thoughts going through my mind.. i just want to get away..forget this town and the heartache it has caused me..There's nothing left here for me..I hate it when i get like this.. i hate the fact that i am alone right now, and that i have no one to look forward to seeing or hearing from..blah blah..yadda yadda...I'm leaving goodbye..

TiDeS of SuiCide..

today was a good day.. Went to class.. bought the U2-The best of 1980-1990 rocks hXc... then came home.. stuffed my face with roman noodles (chicken flovored) and the biggest bowl  of Frosted flakes.. and now i'm a fat pig sitting on my ass... still cravin' food..have yet to satisfy my need for Arigato's Japenese Steak house... and i'm so tempted to drive up to Orlando on friday to get my van checkered shoes.. since no goddamn place in Tampa has them....Thanksgiving on thursday o' snap..

 i think it's so fucking funny how people semi use you to get to other people, and consider themselves your friend, then when they get what they want, you have yet to hear from them.. and how so easily in a short amount of time, stuck up they are in the others person ass..so fucking EMO!!! hahaha if they only knew how fucking hard i'm laughing behind there back.....

Deju' Entendu...

well.. i was cravin japanese like a mother.. and with waiting all day for a phone call.. i finally recieve one at 7:30 and by then i'm fucking cranky (lack of food) n starving.. so i hit up Taco Hell.. and now i feel disgusting.. but on a good note.. i bought the cutest BeBe shoes today at Burlington Coat Factory.. And my Ego was boasted alot when this fucking idiot trying to sell me magazine's at the mall.. kept commenting on how cute i was, and how he loved my skirt.. he talked 3245345345345 million words a minute.. it was fucking crazy.. then when i was going to donate money for the childerns home.. he complained i was writing a 15 buck check.. and i just looked at him " are you fucking serious, fuck you,  you don't get shit then" and walked away.. dumb fuck..

as you can see i'm not at the show this evening why you ask.. b/c i don't have  anyone to go with.. I'm a loner if u haven't noticed from my past entries... but anti-flag is a week away and i can't wait!!!.. oh yes.. That weekend is going to rock my socks like there is no tomorrow...minus the fact i get my wisdom teeth pulled earlier in the week... but i'm going to get in the tub..then rot my brain away with t.V.. and capri suns...Xo

tOo Late....

work

food

Walmart

home

sleep..

tomorrow is full of nothing.. Math test..then hittin' up the mizz-all...b/c there's a red white n black skirt..screaming my fucking name on the top of it's lungs. =)

To Someone: ...sorry for last night, i was being stupid and cranky and i was sober so it sucked even more.. I promise next time i'll be more social.. and if one person tells me that i look like i'm not having fun, i'm gonna deck them.. I cross my heart to be a better best friend..o0o an i saw some martini glasses that would rock your socks at Target..

To Someone else: I'm sorry for this evening.. i once again was being selfish n cranky..I'm way past forgivness now.. I <3 you

To anyone else: I really don't give a damn..

last night...

last all in all...Last night sucked.. only good part was walking to the football game and leaving the football game. haha..  it consisted of driving around getting bitched at for my music, and standing around looking very angry n pissy. haha but what else is new.. i'm so fucking anti social, and i love being sober and watching dumb fucks. 

Happiness is hard to find
Everyone else has it I guess I'm blind
NO all I see is utter lies
Shake my head and close my eyes
But I cant escape and I question myself why?
Call it negativity - it's reality
You've got eyes look and you'll see
Envisioning life through my eyes
I'm so fed up I wish that I was blind.
It's coming back it's oh so clear
I used to feel sorrow now I don't care
Depression, anger, hate, ignite
It detonates and I feel all right
You all feed the fire
I'll sit and watch it burn
Oh.
I wish that I was blind
Fed up
I'm fed up and I wish that I was blind

with that said..Today going to see Gothika, good times are sure to be had.. ah then there's a show on monday local band i might go see.. Can't wait.. it's been far to long since i have been to a show..

dumb.. Fucks...

TampaPalmsGuy [2:43 AM]:  whats your weight and height?
 RoXy336953 [2:43 AM]:  5'2 and 200 pds.
 TampaPalmsGuy [2:43 AM]:  wow u r a big one
 TampaPalmsGuy [2:43 AM]:  your face looks good
 TampaPalmsGuy [2:43 AM]:  what a waste of a nice face
 RoXy336953 [2:44 AM]:  thanks. 

BoY oh' Boy...

well well well.... today didn't turn out like i planned the dali museum was closed when we got there and only two showings for the movie.. which sucked but it was a good night none the less.. went bowling  with Eric and his roommates, then went to good ol' village inn... i can't complain really..but surprising i saw my old friend Amber at Ed n Eddies.. It was nice seeing her again.. We always had a blast together.. so that was the highlight of my evening.. anywho..tomorrow work.. then sitting on my ass  probably... good times.. i'm out on the rizzle...

Friday, I'm in love..

s0o0.. today is Friday..the fucking day i've been waiting for all week..and now that it is friday.. i'm not too excited. I've come to realize i'm bitter, selfish.. and  too niave for my own good. haha..but life is fucking good..For all the times i tasted love, never knew quite what i had..little darlin' if you hear me now, never needed you so bad, spinning round' inside my head...what will be will be.. I love spilling my heart out for the world to see..and in hopes they might catch a glimpse of what i mean...

on another note.. i woke this morning with no voice and a dog at the head of my bed staring me down..but I'm off to get my hair cut, and spend the afternoon with my best friend... Top of the morning to you......

i wanna hold you now..

Today was quite possibly the most wonderful day.. The Weather is fucking beautiful..I made an 88 on my Test..Tomorrow is Friday.. i can't wait.. I'm getting my hair cut.. so excited about that.. =)  Then off to St.pete. Ohh what a week.. tonight consist of Philosophy class.. and then who knows what afterwards.. I just feel absolutly content.. Christmas is coming up..only 35 more days.. 

What on earth is going on in my heart..it has gone numb.. i don't feel anything unless it cuts me right down to the bone, My oh My.. I'm lonely but not alone..and i fucking love it. I have wonderful friends ( i.e Lisa) and family around me.. Who  I love more then anything in this world...and i could die today and not care.. I'm a selfish girl and have hurt alot of hearts.. It's too late for sorry's or even if they would believe it..  i dunno where i'm going with this..Just nothing could be better..  my life is far from perfect.. I have a drunk father who i adore with all my heart..  and a Mom who thinks she's in her twenty's still.. Shes my best friend.. I wouldn't change a thing about either of them. I couldn't ask for anything else in this world...I fucking love this...

I have Sars..

ah well today  is a new day..No more feeling sorry for myself. It's Wednesday which means early class.. and now i get to sit at home and Do nothing. w0ot.. anywho. I'll probably finish up my philosophy papers that i have due and what not..I have had a dry cough for the past two days and due to that i sound like a dude my voice is horribly raspy n stuff.. blah.. oh but this reminds me.. I had the best dream last night.. I was coming across Gandy on my bike (yes, i had my R6 in my dream) and a cop comes up next to me with his lights out.. and i'm oh shit.. so i down shift. and whatever hes all asking me questions like how fast are u going.. blah blah..  it was really wierd.. but i was just siked i was on my bike. =) this entry sounds so fucking nerdy.. goddamn..

The rest of the week looks quite boring besides Friday, me and lisa are still hitting up Down Town St. Pete.. to shop, stuff our face.. look at amazing art and go see Gothika.. and  the high light of it for me..Make fun of all the scene kids with there shaggy black hair down in there face..and there tight Girl pants.. haha.. i can't wait.. I Love Down Towns anywhere.. there full of culture.. I remember me n Billy use to go down there all the time.. n just walk around n talk..n goof off..Good Times.... blah i hate coughs....anywho i'm gonna go drink hot tea... I've been talken drunken Gibberish.....

Isn't Life so Sweet...

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last

So who's to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last

=(

Fuck everything.... Fuck Love and Fuck rejection.. Fuck hard feelings.. i hate this.. i feel like i'm in h.s again.. being rejected  and people making fun of me.. i feel so stupid and humilated..  i guess this is what i get Payback is coming for me in the form of a bullet, and im going to bite it hard this time, kiss it on the lips and welcome myself home.I never thought leaving you would be so hard...

hum de DuM de DuM..

yeah s0o0o.. alkaline trio is sold out.. goddamn it.. blah.. ruins my night.. but oh well nothing new.. anywho.. This friday me and lisa are going to the Dali museum in St. pete then see Gothika so..Good times oh yes. Fuck calling people anymore.. to do shit.  We will start our own shit... MuaHhaHaHa.. but on the lighter note. i bought a Chalk n Charcoal set at Borders today for only 6 bucks.. o-ya. convo me n my mom had

Me-Boys never like me, I'm to wierd/punk....

Mama-No your not. But if u wouldn't dress so funky n get rid of those studded belts, and those pericings.. they would. Wear that pink shirt n jeans, i love that outfit.. Boys will swoon over you if u wear that..

haha.. If only it were that easy to dress a certain way, to get boys to like you.. but i'm me.. i like wearing my black clothes n studded belts. i like the way i look with my pericings and tattoo's..How dare i look different for someone...This is Me take me as i am...Like it or not, but whatever..this is quite possibly the most EMO entry i have done yet... blah..anywho.. School is tomorrow, i need to get on a roll..

P.S Someone in the kindness of there heart buy me the U2-War c.d... I would sell my soul for you..and love you forever and ever...cross my heart..<3

 

 

gimme something quick n Sweet

work

Bucs Game

Sitting on my ass

s0o0o..yeah.. i haven't got much to say, tonight was an early night thank heavens.. But tomorrow is Alkaline trio.. o0o the love of shows.. i haven't been to one in months last one was with Billy-Bigwig and what not..  and being that this is one of my all time favorite bands makes it so0o much better. Work was boring today.. sat n shot gun rubber bands at Gwen. good times. Best part of breaking up is finding someone you can't get enough of.....

goddamn-shit-motherfucker

well..well..well...Tonight was a whole lot of nothing. It's time for some changes around here no more depending dead end people for shit to do.. no more calling people.. I'm going to start writing more, like i use to. Go do my own thing. Fuck people who never call back n shit.. goddamn. I'm tired of sitting on my ass and slacking in school..blah.. this is me in a pissy mood, and a hang over from the evening befor still.. anywho..  i'm through with this shit... goodbye.

p.s...

i forgot to say my mom this morning comes in my room and is like yeah Britni gotta hang over don't cha.. You and lisa being all loud at 4 o clock in the morning..

me-"are you okay to drive?"

Drunk off her ass lisa-"yeah yeah, I'm fine"

then my  Mom was like throw up everything last night.. i just smiled "i was like u heard me? i was trying to be real quiet to not to wake you".. I'm such a Considerate daughter. I Love my Mama...<3

tHe ShaKes...

so yeah.. me n lisa hit up the football game.. which was a total waste of 6 bucks.. I  was just reminded then why i hated H.S so much.. n  Why i'm so glad to be outta there.. after that Went over to Erics.. n played your typical drinking games.. Lets just say 3 hours later n a bottle of Red wine later.. Everyone but me was passed out on the floor.. and  i was left "hey guys come on.. get up blah blah" so  as usual i'm by the music playing all my fav. songs from the mix tape i made Eric..  blah blah..anywho all in all it was a great night.. but all today i had the shakes..  fucking sucked i felt like a crack addict going through withdrawls.. me n lisa vow to not drink for a while.. there's more stories through out the night.. but I'll post those in a later entry....but this entry is lame.. so i'm not even going to bother n try to be poetic and sarcastic.. Just Take me as i am..

?!?!?!

HOLY FUCK THERE MAKING A SEQUEL TO THE GOONIES! =)

Answer that n stay Fasionable..

ahh well fondue kicked ass.. it was funnier then shit.. even though everyone bailed blah...  but after wards me n Lisa hit up WALmart.. bout her hair dye..talked to Eric.. Went to her place.. Hooked a Sister up.. and now i'm here.. BoRed.. School tomorrow and night class.. yuck.. it's gonna suck.. but semester is almost over.. just an observation.. Why is it have more people on my BLOCK list then i do on my BUDDY list...fuck... but all in all it was a Fabulous day in the neighborhood....rock!... P.S i'm so goddamn ready to cut off my hair it's crazy...Faux Mohawk anyone?

ClASsIc Me n LiSa StuFF..

 USF LiSa [5:05 PM]:  i just noticed i use .... a lot 
 RoXy336953 [5:06 PM]:  me to.. instead of spaces i use ....
 USF LiSa [5:06 PM]:  yeah.. it's funny 
 RoXy336953 [5:06 PM]:  haha.. now everytime i do i laugh..
 USF LiSa [5:06 PM]:  lol..  
 USF LiSa [5:06 PM]:  see.. i can't just have the word by itself 
 RoXy336953 [5:06 PM]:  lol.. me either..
 USF LiSa [5:07 PM]:  this is a funny convo 
 RoXy336953 [5:07 PM]:  haha i know i'm posting it on my journal
 USF LiSa [5:07 PM]:  lol 

Lisa is my bestest friend in the whole wide universe..We Are so FREAKIN HILARIOUS!!!.... 

WoW.BaNG. SuRPiRse.

umm...slept all day. ate. drank 5 gazillion capri suns...sitting on my ass as of right now... debating on going to the Thrice show this evening. but odds are.. i won't. blah..Me n Lisa are trying to get a group together to go to the melting pot tomorrow evening so if your down you know the drizzle.. o0o0 High Dollar. forizzle..and for the rest of the week.. school.. then.. o0o Go out like Rock stars. Me n the Big L are gonna hit up our old H.S.. and represent for the shorty's.... MuaHaHaHaHa...The Unseen show is tomorrow evening.. but.. due to Ex b/f's who hate ur guts n  whatever.. i am unable to attend that show...  And once again i'd have no one to go with.. so Whatever I'll live. and i promise i'm really not this negative. I like french fries... PRAISE THE LORD!! <3

Fcuk yu0o0o Mr. PoSt Man.

yeah s0o. Fuck rap Music.. and Fuck people who think i look mad n angry at the world at social events..and fuck drunk people who spill there beer on me and bump into me. but on the other hand ELF rocked my socks.. and how bout this chilly weather.. bErRrRrR......No school tomorrow equals me sitting on my ass n watching t.v. ROCK!

One Mean Cleaning Machine..

dun..dun.. dun..Woke up.. didn't go to class once again. cleaned my room and finally put up all my goddamn books up. wh0a. It's wonderful outside today..Me n Lisa might take Roo and Jack to the doggy park.o snap.anywho off the subject. Last night was nice hung out with Eric and his roommate with Lisa..Good times..Well i'm off to finsih my laundry..adios.. P.S this is only the begining of my obsessiveness with this god forsaken internet shit....