tuesday morning..it feels like friday..oh how i wish it is...



i love the sunny weather..fuck the cold..

 

..it'll all work out..
don't you worry about that..
you made it all the easier.

 

better off with him..
then here with you.

 

 

 

<3

love it

...set things right.

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i like going on dates.getting dressed up,the shy talking, and smiling.the goodbye kiss. it is a wonderful feeling i have not had in so long..
...weekend was wonderful...
went boating today..and got some much needed sun.

this week will be just as wonderful..
movies with Roger.wednesday. going away party for Deejay..Miami bound..nice kid.

 

coming weekend..boy scouting...and i'm not talking about no camp fire homo's.

i love how i can breath again..relief.
the sound of acoustic guitar is stringing through my head..i am in love.

 

 

 

 

<3

 

 

'..love dries up, i thought as i walked back to the bathroom, even faster than sperm..'
-bukowski- he always says it best.

 

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you continued to go on and on how hard you tried to make me happy...
yet the second i'm gone, you have girls down your throat..or more so you down their throat...disgusting..
i'm angry now. hurt yesterday. today. angry. stupid that i believed the bullshit..

 

another notch on your belt eh. another entry in your little black book.write your little comment next to my name..make sure you spell it right. fuck you.
i wish you the best of luck with whatever the fuck you are doing. or whoever the fuck your doing.

i never needed this, you wonder why i was all pissy bitchy. it was you did you ever think. yeah we had our wonderful mornings when everything was right. but in the end, you were sneaking texting with fucking girls, and whoever else knows. i should have known the moment bobby warned me, or the fact that you talk dirty with your friends.. how fucking stupid i was..how i wasted so much time/money/heart. on you. I don't give a fuck anymore. about you. you are a horrible person and i hope i never have to see your face or anything related to you again.. you were angry when i did it..but i sensed a little bit of relievement from your end.. you don't have to put up with my shit anymore..

 

i don't care what you think of me now. how girls fuck you over. and over. not just in heart but in your bed..you think you try so hard blah blah..etc..etc..ha... yes you make up for the shit a time or two...but all in all it was nothing...you were feeling bad for all the shitty things you did.... i want to wash you away with everything..

 

you won't read this.. i'm well aware.. but i'm too fucking old now for myspace.. it's all drama.and i know i will only lurk..and get more angry at the fucking girls you have. so..why bother...save my self the trouble..this will be last time i speak/think/love of you.

 

 

you will miss me..that is for sure.
i hope your happy with what you have done.
i'm happy..semi..for finally sticking up for myself. doing what you always thought i never had the guts to do..well i did..and i can finally sleep at night, and not worry about what you are doing, why you haven't called....oh how wonderful it will be.

 

 

 

 

 

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getting slower.

 

 

i'm listening to fleetwood mac..
uploading music to my ipod...
reading bukiwski-love is a dog from hell..
wearing my geeky retainer-my teeth ache..
i have bear socks on from alaska..
i'm pretty hot stuff right now..hince. retainer/bear socks.

 

i'm updating at an odd time.. i know..i thought i would surprise myself..go back to my old ways...

 

 

 

it's way past my bed time..goodnight.

 

 

 

love always,
b