wore my best clothes

this weekend i have no complaints..roger came over on Saturday, was going to eat at cheesecake factory but the wait was extremely long so we went to bamboo club, worked sunday was extremely slow.. Roger came over again after work went to subway, watched the Sunday stew as always, went to bed early got up early today, and went knee boarding/tubing over on tarpon lake with my dad and mom.. bar-b-qued and what not.. was a great time.

came home.. took a nap ate dinner watched t.v.. got into a scuffle with the mom..she threw a medicine bottle at me and hit me right on the cheek bone. in result i have tiny cut a welt i'm gonna have to sport for who knows how long..forgive me for my entries have not been as witty or humerous as usual..

fin..

 

i'll just.. i dunno.

ah well worked today..then after work me and Gwen went over to Heidi's to give her some presents we bought for the baby.. then we went to dinner at Ruby tuesday.. it was great seeing her again.

Last night-was eventful.. met up with son and his friend Mike. who by the way was eck.. horrible manners, and no respect for girls.. i hate drunks who keep talking to me. 'whats wrong? smile' and then they hang on me.. sick..  but i am thankfull for Eric from clearwater who kept me company during son and his friends danced, and i stood by myself by the exit door, he moosey alonged and said 'you look like your not enjoying yourself' ..good call..  i learned he was from cali,  enjoyed good bands,and just moved to clearwater to start his marketing busisness he looked outta place also.. so we stood by ourselves made fun of the fat chicks his friends were trying to hook up with, he told me his story how he stole the mints outta the bathroom... and we totally agreed on just bum rushing the idiots on the floor, and start a mosh, and skank our hearts away..and that was that...

Tomorrow is boyfriend time hopefully.. it's much needed, work, and more work.. then knee boarding on monday with the family..good times hopefully.

)(*&^%$#@!

It's hopeless now
It seems that there's nothing left
I don't care anymore, this failure that surrounds me I accept
Because I can't be all the things I want to without you
And it won't help to watch you smile without me
And begging to hold on,
I desperately try to remove memories of moments
that I thought you were happy
And I pretend not to care
I hope you're miserable without me
But that's not love nor true
You could not be better off now
I'm waiting for the day when I'd forget you
But I don't know if its right to hate this through
When you're the only one I see who truly keeps me here
But all you've left me is alone
And I miss you now
When all I can do is wish it wasn't this way, wish it wasn't too late
So is it wrong to ask for a second chance?
To prove my regret
To make up for the world
It's hopeless now, so hopeless to forget that there's no one here for me
Because I can't be all the things I want to without
And I'm waiting for the day when I'd be with you
Forever it will be, a dream that's always short of true
When you're the only one I see, who truly keeps me here
But all you've left me is alone

 

<3,B

..things i would do..

best convo last night..

xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:12 PM]:  and why is carmen electra famous
RoXy336953 [10:13 PM]:  b/c shes got fake tits
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:13 PM]:  other than being preety there is nothing to her
RoXy336953 [10:13 PM]:  photogenic?
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  look at pamerla anderson
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  pamala*
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  looks get you every where
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:   people like pretty things.
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:14 PM]:  i know thats true
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:14 PM]:  its sad but true
RoXy336953 [10:15 PM]:  very 
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  well its sad for non good looking people
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  me and you dont have to worry
RoXy336953 [10:15 PM]:  lol
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  seriously
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  i talk my way out of everything
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:16 PM]:  just smile and be charming you get whatever you want

 Last evening, me and roger went to Olive Garden.*which i might add was not our first date no matter what you say Roger* i have nothing on the agenda as for today.. i work thursday through sunday this week..::bank::.. =) now i'm gonna go down stairs do my exercises, eat blue berry muffins.. and starve myself for the rest of the day.. my goal is.. 115.. i don't give a fuck if it's not healthy..

<3, britniMarlana

hey you...

ah.. weekend so far can't complain.Roger spent the night all weekend. Friday went to a show at masquerade.. saturday worked..then came home.. today went to Brunch with my family down in Harbour Island, roger went riding while i did that..so now i'm here bored.. waiting for him..

.....my mind is running a million thoughts a minute, what i would  not give..

__________

We were making plans together not so long ago, but things change everything changes, and i know in my heart your not coming back..

::never been kissed::

Now the moon is up and the stars are out yeah it's quite a sight to see
It's times like this oh how I wish you were still next to me
Maybe our paths baby will cross somewhere down the line
Who's to say
I just hope you're doing fine
I miss you so
I hope you're doing fine
That's all for now
I hope you're doing fine

___________________________________________

nothing to update about..same ol same ol.. tomorrow is friday. yay!

::life in your heart::

fighting back the impulse
turn my head and close my eyes
spending these nights awake and cold and paralyzed
wonder how we got this far and
never realized the common thread that binds our lives
and I know you hurt
but I can help you if you can...
take my hand
and we'll live inside the dreams we left behind
take my hand
as we move from this place to a better life
take my hand
(if you take my hand)
fighting back the feeling that you always could deny
anything but everything we know is just a lie
as I cremate this memory and watch the darkened ashes rise
and beneath the smoke
I'll stand and ask you if you can
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show
fight back the urges
turn my head and close my eyes
and will I wake tomorrow still alive
I'm still dreaming
I'm still waiting
I'm still sure
(I'm still sure)
you're still living in a life
that isn't yours
(that isn't yours)
and this is part of me
I hope you never see
this is my life inside your heart
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show

amour

had a much needed conversation with a certain someone.. <3

the boy leaves on monday for a whole month..what is a girl to do..hopefully seeing him tomorrow..

 

g'nite

::Blind Truth::

spent about 150 bucks today. got  2 shirts and a skirt, two c.d's..a new bra..and some random stuff for me and my mom at home.. and i bought my sister some things also..

                  this is the result of being bored and having a camera phone..

this evening i'm going to a graduation for my cousin with my daddy..

::the exes::

ah.. well the weekend was decent nothing to complain nor brag about.. Roger slept over on friday and went and ate at.. i can't remember.. then came home an watched only half of scary movie 3 because it sucked..

Saturday worked.. was surprising slow, then came home and laid around and watched t.v ::Sunday:: work was even slower read my new cosmo, then me and my mama went to Bonefish..::Tomorrow:: I'm going to the gym, tan. shower, and then head out shopping, just because i need new clothes and because i want to...nuff said..

It would be so much better if i could totally erase things from my memory, go back, reverse things..change it, to the way i want it to be. Make things better for everyone, especially for me.. call me selfish...

highlight of my weekend

Mike: ' That wood is eff'd up'

Jimmy: 'Thats some effin s'

::invisible monster::

ahh well nothing to update about as usual..went to the track last night with Roger <3 my dinner consisted of a slim jim and moutain due.. Today i went to the doc.. laid around, and cleaned the kitchen.. made sweet tea.. and possibly might go rent a few movies and get a magazine.. who knows..

Tomorrow:: i'm getting my hair cut yet again..shorter though..then later in the evening. me and him will do something not sure what though at the moment.. but something..

I've been thinking far too much lately keeping myself up at night with all these thoughts running through my head, it's impossible for me to think straight, what will be, what is, and what has. just random things.. believe me i'm completely happy, i have a wonderful boyfriend, and a great mother and father, and the worlds best dog, but yet in the back of my mind, there it is. always lingering, and never going away. i hate it.

 

 

 

P.S.  I have cancer.

::shenanigans::

ah well i just got up, nothing to really update about, went to borders yet again yesterday, and got two books, and looked at cute hair cuts.. Tomorrow Me and Son are heading up to HCC to register for classes for fall, Tiger Army is on thursday, i doubt i'll go not really up for the scene..

Today:: i don't have much planned clean house perhaps, and finish my laundry that i started on sunday::gah:: go tan, and read my other book. what else can i babble on about.. Nikki goes into surgery today, good luck sweetie. I miss that friendship back in middle school she was one the greatest friends ever. ahh.. My Two favorite girls at work are leaving..such a downer..

anywho, that is all..

<3

..fat & sassy..

This weekend  i have no complaints.. hung out with the boy on Friday, ate at a Japanese restraunt, where he became a lush like there's no tomorrow..

saturday, worked...nothing to brag about went to borders bought a book watched Fifth Element..

Sunday-Today.. Worked power went out for like 20 minutes felt like i was back in H.S..during a fire drill.. it was exciting..after afterwards Roger came over proceeded to Cody's and waited forever in a day for our food.. ended up with two free apps though.. went to Superwalmart.. came home.. wrestled..he beat my ass in slaps..laid around and watched the Sunday stew.. i couldn't ask for a better sunday or a better boy in my life....  i got lucky this time around <3 plus how could you not like someone who does  MX sound effects on your butt..?!?! thats what i thought..

                                                 I miss him already..

 

<3

 

::can't go on::

ah, well yesterday was a pleasant surprise the boy came over, did some running around then went to the pool, and basked in the sun..laid around and watched t.v... nothing special.. just spent some much needed time with him, and well deserved..

today i'm burning c.d's to cash.. running some errons for my mama, and that is about it.. Tomorrow is payday and perhaps i'll call up Nauni and Lauryn and see if they wanna go to the beach..hmph

                                                          <3

...Give it all...

so i have nothing to really update about.my mom got a new car.. went and saw 'Mean Girls' with my mama and went shopping was nice.. and a good movie.. This evening we went to maggino's was good also..

Tomorrow hopefully hanging out with Ganster seems to never work out.. blah... My days are filled nothing, school is out and i would like to have a second job to fill in the time i do nothing.. sucks.. but oh well... i have to sign up for fall classes sooner or later.. more leaning toward the 'later'...blah..

and i have yet to see my boyfriend. hopefully on thursday that will happen have to see...also tomorrow is The OC is a must to watch.. i'll be sitting in front of the t.v at 9 o'clock sharp...