filled up.

i'm sleepy..and hungry at the moment..


i plan on going home, and finding something unhealthy to put in my stomach..then i shall bath..and go to my empty bed..and fall asleep...

thank god. i only have one more day of this...


i'm looking foward to this weekend..thats for sure.

<3

i'm excited to see you..

r.t.h.

to be honest jealousy filled me when we talked today and went over what we got for Christmas and when it came to what our significant others got us, and what we had got them..and when we spoke over your week, and what you would be doing..especially this Friday...



this isn't normal...i am well aware of this..
please tell me you feel the same......
that i am not insane for feeling this
it's so much easier to type it over this thing
then tell you over the phone or in person..
i am at tears..blame it on the alcohol or
the break in my heart

i get so tired of missing you..

wasted

sometimes love slips away and you just can't get it back lets face it.
for one split second i almost turned around but that would be like pouring rain drops back into a cloud...


another glass of whiskey but it just don't kill the pain..
am i spending my life wasted.. i don't want to wake up one and find all these years wasted

i don't want to keep on waiting and wishing...
perhaps before it's too late everything will become crystal clear
and i will relize it was meant to be..
those times i should have spilled my heart to you,
told you i simply loved you completely..

but i knew i had to do it, and you wouldn't understand, so hard to see myself without you. i felt a peice of my heart break. i was at a cross road.. there was a choice i had to make.. i guess its gonna have to hurt....

sometimes moving on with the rest of my life, starts with goodbye.

this is my regret..and failure.. 

/ / / /

 

 

 

Christmas 4 days away.. and i'm done with shopping thank goodness

i do not understand why a certain boy gives me an attitude for no reason, it's quite upsetting if you ask me..

My computer will finally  be fixed today..Yay!!!

i will be even more blonde at 7:30 this evening.. now that's something to be excited about.

I like having conversations with you, I've missed you..

Next Friday i'm going to get ink on my back, and now i believe that is all i have to update about...

Thanks for wasting a little bit of your life reading this..

love always,
britni

....duh

eEee!

i'm alive.. i have no idea why i always say/type that...
work work work..
busy busy busy


i need a hair cut, and a million dollars, and for this feeling to go away-of regret and something else i can not say...

wicker park is a great movie..i cried through-out it..
i'm glad your happy.
atlease one of us is..

i'm reading memiors if a Geisha right now..
enough said..

<3