dead to you.

so.. the weekend is at it's end..last night i did spring cleaning.. went through everything.. yadda yadda.. i  couldn't bare to let go of some things. old love letters from a certain someone(broken promises),and my old h.s. cheerleading poms..ect,

 

'le sigh'

yesterday i spent about 200 bucks at the mall.then a good 50 at victoria secrets.. on much needed spring clothes and a new pair or blue II jeans..then right there are 90 bucks in themselves..anywho.. i'm thinking about moving out. since i got a fantastic raise at work.. now i just gotta save up some, and start hunting.. then i'll finally get my dog.. being as my mom promised she would buy me one as a house warming gift whenever i moved out...lucky me.

btw. i love this weather..and i have the biggest sweet tooth right now.. I'm gonna go wonder down stairs and find me something..

 

 

i love how beautiful he makes me feel, and how he never wants me to go..eEeEe!

never change..

so i'm sick..i think.  perhaps.. who know.. but i'm not at work..

the last three days have been nice.. spent with the boy of course..wenesday night went out to Gators and did the normal.. drink and stand around and make fun of peope.. highlight of the night.. 'Your so pretty, i've been looking around and your the prettiest here'  thursday ran errons, then went out for Gwens b-day went to mangroves then Soho whiskey park.. not my cup of tea.. i'm too lower class for the place. i'd rather hang out in a hole in the wall bar then there every again..Friday: boy yet again, ran errons, then he cooked on the grill.. yadda yadda..

 

and now i'm here.. bored.. listening to Lucero, about to clean my room, because i had a fit the other night and had nothing to wear, and now my clothes are all over my bed, and shoes all over the floor..

 

 

p.s. my crack is forever creeping outta my jeans..and i love it.

beast of burden

 

 

 

 

can you say pig tails..finally??.......

 

Emily says i look like i belong on the beach. and i'd have to agree with her.

not now.

so finally... i have my cowboy boots.. 168 bucks later..EeeEeEeee!!

 

i love the new Lucero song on th Atticus 3 c.d.. eEeEeEe!!

 

i get to see the boy on Thursday... EeeEeeE!!

 

 

and i'm rich, and great, and have wonderful people in my life..EeEeEe!!!!

kills me to know.

 

 

 

last night was good.. no complaints, and i love sleeping in the boys bed squished between.. fat ass brindle (american bulldog) and Jason (the boyfriend) i got brindle snoring on one side of me and then a heavy arms draped over me.. haha. i love it.. and then waking up, and being pinned down and being asked to call in and stay with him all day, is quite a nice feeling..

 

work was slow today.. which was cool i suppose but it dragged..

anywho, i'm off to do something... anything but stay home..

 

 

 

 

ciao

 

 

 

 

 

why oh why....

 

 

*pout*

keepsake::''..;';.

i hate little moods people get into, and then take it out on me.. 'sigh'...

disney was fantastic for those who care.. a little nippy but fun none the lease..The boy is great, though his drunken behavior is not.. i can only shake my head in shame, and take it easy, and know he's better then that.. it's for those times in the late evening when we're going to bed or waking up in the morning that makes up for all the drunkeness, He's like a little puppy dog, which you can only love on and show affection to, when they have just woken up or really really sleepy..silly thing.

Valentines day was good, i got a huge iron cross from my mama, and a wonderful picture of james dean from my daddy..and cards, and chocolates from a variety of people. and i bought myself a few things also, bathing suit, jewelry, and what have yous.. doesn't matter..

as for now i'm watching the biography on Jeanna Jameson, i have her book already, and it's practically the same thing, but there's nothing better on t.v.

 

forgive me for the lameness of this post..

 

exoh

i'm bad news.

 

 

 

i'm so alone right now... it sucks...

35mm

soo.. i'm listening to the new armor for sleep well a few songs that i could locate over the internet.. and i must say i am very impressed way better then there last c.d..car underwater is a very very good song. ..

i'm so excited i don't have work for the next two days. tomorrow i'm picking up my bonus and what not.. running errons, then the mama and daddy are finally after two months meeting Jason.. haha.should be a good time.. Then change of plans for disney were going on friday instead of the 18th.. due to him getting promoted and not so sure on his new schedule for work, so it's better that we do it earlier then never at all. poor boy. all he does is work and sleep.. but i'm excited that were going.. a good v-day it shall be.. EeEeEeeE!!!

 

i got bored and painted my nails 'Bubble gum'.. and doing laundry, i'm not sleepy either so.. who knows what else i'll do by the end of the night.. anywho.. i don't feel like updating this anymore.. fuck it.

 

 

it was nice hearing your voice again..

ersgfdcbvn

'

 

la..la..la......

 

picture post...

 

 

random i know.. but bleh...

you love me.

 

my own life.::/

 

 

 

this weather sucks.. my  hair is resembling a cockatoo at the moment, and i'm [ this ] close to being able to put it in a pny tail once again.. You do not understand how happy that makes me feel.

 

now i'm off to spend money, and enjoy my day-off

 

i miss the boy real bad..

 

p.s. i'm drinking the biggest cup of tea right now, and jack just put his wet paws all over me....eeCckKkK..

speaking::

i'm updating far too much lately..

 

and i've been listening to slipknot all night for some reason.. blah.. it's quite depressing. Far to much thinking of the past year.. i hate it. I'm beyond happy, but as always, dwelling in the past.. what i could have done to be a better person, and a better ex-girlfriend to a certain someone..your crossing my mind way too much recently..

i hope everything is working out with you.

 

That place in my mind...
Is that space that you call mine.
That place in my mind...
Is that space that you call mine...

Where have I been all this time?
Lost and slain; fatal decline.

I've been waiting for this to unfold...
But...
But pieces are only as good as they're whole.

Selling myself for my own life.
I cut off the only thing that was right.
What if I never saw you again?
I'd die right next to you in the end!

That place in my mind...
Is that space that you call mine.
That place in my mind...
Is that space that you call mine.

I wont let you walk away...
Without hearing what I have to say
Without hearing what I have to say...

 

 

i'm such a retard.

'le sigh'

Why do you love me? Why do you need me? Always and forever... We met in a chatroom, now our love can fully bloom... Sure the world wide web is great, but you, you make me salivate... I love technology, but not as much as you, you see... But I STILL love technology... Always and forever. Our love is like a flock of doves, flying up to heaven above... always and forever, always and forever... Why do you need me? Why do you love me? Always and forever...

 

...napoleon dynamite is great.. me and Celeste made 60 bucks at work today for singing that over the intercom at work today.. sweeett...

Tomorrow is full of nothing. perhaps going over to the boys to see him a few, then off he goes to work.. yadda yadda

Friday is full of picking up check, shopping, and Brighteyes with Erik..should be a fabulous time, i'm much excited. i highly doubt i'm going to see Strike anywhere though on saturday. We're celebrating Emily's b-day that evening so.. it looks like a big negative. on the show.. oh well.. seen em before anywho..

And i keep choking on the straw i'm chewing on.. and now it's time for Aerobic Striptease..

 

 

p.s. Roger my mom misses you. She was looking through my photo album, and came across a picture of you, that a few weeks ago i developed film and discovered you on it..Of course your smiling, and showing no teeth.. silly boy. and just to tell you how old it is.. It was taken when i had my corolla..Has it been that long? okay i'm getting all pouty and sad..do i even cross your mind?

 

could have been the begining of something great..shame on you.

 

<3