clothes of a poser

okay this is it.. for today anyways..

 

these are from the bachorlette party.... =)

 

 

i am a dummy
i have the greatest friends ever
we are too cute
i miss things
that is all



<3
label whore.

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more very very old pics.. haha.. it's amazing how refeshing this is...
those were the good ol days

 

 

i love my H.S pic.. i'm straight outta an american eagle ad.

more to come..

 

 

 

 

ahh.. going back in the day.. pictures of moi.. in the past.. year.. my hair was far too long.. and now i've only gone shorter and blonder.. very nice..

nudity.

 

 

i only like the right side of me..i was extremely bored yesterday waiting for the boy to call..expecting to head over there after he got off.. all dolled up. but i ended up just waiting and washing my face at 10:30 when i heard nothing..hmph..

 

sad little ol me...pity me.

 

he promised to take me to the beach today.. and it's already almost 11.. and still no call from him...

i had a very weird dream last night about old loves, i enjoyed it though because everything went exactly how i wanted it.. it turned out perfect.

 

 

[x]exhale.[x]

well i know.

WARNING:

Do not read any futher if you don't want to know about star wars.

 

 

 

 

saw stupid ass Star War movie last night with my friend Andrew..blah.. by the way. Anakin StarWalker is Darth Vader. And Luke fucks his sister...nice.. i just ruined it for who ever sees that movie.

 

 

i'm going deep sea fishing today with the folks out by hudson area.

 

 

Lucero has not left my c.d player since i purchased it.Fantastic.

alright i hear my daddy pulling up..

 

 

 

 

p.s. i'm a raw vegan now..fruits nuts and veggies.thats it.

 

 

 

 

 

you know you do.

 

 

i had a fabulous faux hawk for the wedding.. a stylish one though..straight outta the paris runways.. i loved it. along with anyone else with taste..

 

 

i'm home i have to work tomorrow blah..the california boys are gone, safe to say i shall miss them.. hopefully i'll be seeing them soon, they said i'm more then welcome to come out and visit..perhaps i will?..

the new Lucero c.d comes out tomorrow and i'm beyond excited.. def. going to stop by vinyl fever and pick it up.. it should be a good week..work two days off two days.. nice.. very nice.

 

 

today i spent it with the boy, *smile*

 

 

 

i'm going to bed now though... night.

make it on my own.

 

 

 

well..well..well..today hmph.. is the day.. i'm up early because i have to go pick up Charlene, at 9:30 this morning then were off to the Salon, for a fabulous fun filled day of hair and make-up..

 

last night was good..the party went flawless, and everyone had a nice time..The call when i got home from the boy..was not. Just tired of shit. in general..yeah sure i'm his woman, what not. he adores me or so he says, but then he says things, and i know he's a jerk.. everyone does, but he just says shit that he could care less and i just wanna throw my hands up, and say fuck you. Push that nail a little deeper why don't you..I told him to not bother with coming today, i'll go alone, because i'm tired of these little fights we get into.. he likes the bottle a little to much. meh. who knows..

 

 

i'm tired of it all..i'm far too young to feel this damn old....

 

 

 

 

 

and the pussycat dolls are my guilty pleasure...

not listening.

 

i'm literally a drunk.. i've pretty much drank every night this week.. sucks.. but i'm having a good time,  it will be over soon...the wedding day is on sunday, and the Hunter's Green Country club.. yadda yadda went out with the infamous cali boys last night with gwen and ryan.. a wonderful time..

 

i worked my ass off this week for Gwen's rehersal dinner..fuck.. that girl needs to thank me over and over again, for the shit we went through..sheesh..but none the less it looks beautiful..today i'm relaxing i ain't doing shit, b/c i've done shit all week...

blah blah blah.. this is a complaining journal..=)

 

oh by the way, the boy apologized for the other evening, and look me out to lunch and dinner the following day, he couldn't explain why he said or whatever.. but he felt bad, so he made up for it i suppose..meh..there is only so much more i can take. Yesterday my dad calls me and is like Your uncle mike is selling his house, do you think you would wanna move out and move in with a roommate or something, and i'm like nice awesome i'd love to.. but i don't have a roommate to move in with.. all my friends are living with other friends, or getting married and living with there boyfriend...and he was just like oh, well it was a thought or whatever. I love my daddy.

 

but i'm gonna go down stairs and lay around and do jack shit today..

 

 

later..

temptation

 

so went up to  peabodys with gwen and the west coast boys, Jason met me up there with his roomate and her friend..

 

 

 

so having not seen the boy in about a week, and i'm all giddy to see him, and all i get from him is a whispered 'Don't love on me right now' ????? what?????...i pull back and just walk away.. what the fuck? perhaps i'm over reacting or maybe it was one of his sarcastic comments..who knows... but all i know is..i'm at home right now.. angry and drunk.. and ready to cry my eyes out..

 

whatever..so i lied when i said things were going great...lying. it's one of my specialties....

 

 

 

the boy cycle..hmph.. it's tragic....love em' and leave  em'

i need me some major passion in my life..big time..pronto.

booze&adventure

 

 

it's almost over..thank goodness...

 

hung out with Ryans friends from cali timpleton i believe to be exact... two fella's who belong in FL, i introduced one to boiled peanuts..cajun style and he was like 'those are trippy, they like melt in your mouth' and the both said i would fit in perfect in cali, and that i should visit..Their CA style always makes me smile.. can pick you west side boys out in a sec. i love it.

my comp likes to not work, so i can't post any pics from the bachlorette party on saturday. meh...

 

anywho, i'm off to slumber..

 

 

happiness psshhh..i'm a fake

love you forever.

 

 

i bought an amazing chocolate brown dress at Express today, for Gwen's rehersal dinner on saturday..it's beautiful..and what makes me even more happy, is that it's a size 4 and it's still a little too big, yay for me..

 

last evening was fantastic we had a hummer limo, for the night for the bachlorette party.i had my bottle of sailor jerry rum, great friends around me and ghetto music blasting i was set.. we were loud through-out ybor, and had a fabulous time.. then around 2 Gwens like. 'i wanna see boobies'..so we find ourself at Thee Dollhouse.. where gorgeous skinny, girls roomed, and each of us girls recieved a lap dance..from a beautiful blonde.. on the way home the boy was a jerk on the phone for what reason? who knows...so this morning i get a message from him apologizing, yadda..yadda..blah.

 

 

i've been listening to the infamous lesbian sisters all day..on repeat..my nails are freshly painted sheer pink. im cravin sushi really bad at the moment though.. but i refuse to go eat it by myself..i think im gonna go wonder downstairs and find some dinner...

 

 

 

bye-bye

hard to feel.';.,/

 

i'm in love with my new arnettes..white rage ones i might add.. i have black.. but my life just wasn't complete without the white ones.. spent the day with the boy after i got my hair done.. i like the boy tons. and. tons.

 

'You're so cute' he says.. i'll have to agree..i am adorable.. my fantastic personality does wonders for my looks..

 

but it's late and heaven knows what i'm still doing up.

 

 

 

p.s. if you haven't already known i'm spoiled, and selfish, and gosh darn pretty, and people like me damn it.

 

 

 

 

g'nite.zZzzzZzzzZzzZzZZZ.....

 

 

 

 

p.s. i'm forgetting memories of you, and that makes me a little sad..remind me of some, make me smile, make my heart skip a beat a tiny bit...if only you talked to me.. it's a shame..i'm over you, but i miss you terribly..i should hunt you down and make you see me..make all those feelings come rushing back to you...what on earth would go through your head if i did?..i wish i just got a e-mail from you..anything. and yes i'm talking about you bobby...i still have pictures of you in my room.. pathetic i know. we were both young and obsessed...

stuck around.

 

 

 

I am the walking dead heartbreaker,
my apologie.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

today i'm going shorter and blonder.but not boy short.. but a chic bob...then i gotta shop for Gwens Bachlorette party on saturday..typical..ybor. So if you wonder down there and see a bunch of beautiful loud gals.. hootin' and hollerin'.. thats us.

-Saturday.Day- going to st.pete to watch extreme sports..competition.show. some tour is putting on.. i only have minor details of it..but it should be a fantastic time, i'm exccited.

-Things have been going quite well for me.. great in fact..*surprising* i'm just waiting for it to come tumbling down on me sooner or later..more sooner then later. but for the time being i'm enjoying the company i have, and the wonderful times i'm having, and the great days at work that continue to come..ah.. minus that i haven't talked to my mother since tuesday..being that she discovered the  recent 'ink' i have now.. haha.. my dad stuck up for me about it, while she stormed outta his condo. after dinner. oh well..she will live..but i'm gonna go wash my truck, and bask in the sun before my app.

 

 

<3

876ytghjkm,

 

 

things are well...things weekend looks promising..that is if a certain someone doesn't bail on me again....

 

 

that is all...

 

 

you miss me terribly i know...perhaps it works both ways....

 

 

 

i don't' expect you to understand..forgive me.

great./.,

 

 

 

 

 

 

'She'll only break your heart, it's a fact. And even though I warn you, even though I guarantee you that the girl will only hurt you terribly, you'll still pursue her. Ain't love grand?'

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

<3

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i'm beyond bored..end result me updating again.. by the way i'm in a horrible mood. Thank you.

 

i love how naive i am.. I am quick to believe anything, it's sad.. i can only hang my head in shame, when i think back on certain times..even now. tsk tsk.. oh how i admired you, i love stumbling across things.. lies..lies.. and more of them.. i hope you throw up your heart today, i hope you feel like shit everytime you think of me, i hope you regret ever knowing me, or giving yourself up so easy to me.. i hope you hate that you cried over me..begged me to return to you...Today could have been something wonderful..

 

a drink goes straight to my heart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i use to feel so much, now i just feel dumb. I'll never understand this emptiness, i'll never really try to understand.. i guess....

p.s. i love me some Ryan Adams.

bla blah.awerhtigdjntyseo

yeah..so much for plans today.. pretty much the waiting around for your phone call or a little bit of excitment in your voice when i called..was fucking pointless.. you state.. 'don't be mad' easier said then done...whatever.. shame on me for being excited the past two weeks to hang out with you.... but like i said before only time we do hang out or talk is all on my part....i get nothing from your end...ever.

 

'le sigh'

 

but on a better note.. chesney last night was dreamy, a fantastic show i must say, and i'm a little more fonder of good ol. Gretchen Wilson..who knew..afterwards i went over to the boys house, and hung out and talked galore with adam..his outrageous stories are hilarious. Then woke up around 4 with the boy breaking his phone, because he couldn't get it turned on, and his temper gets the best of him, more then i like to admit.. but oh well..

 

anywho.. i have multiple things i could do tonight.. just me making up my mind on who i should grace with my presence...

 

 

farewell....

regret you.

 

now my hair is making me mad.. because it's too long to do anything with.. and too short also.. so i'm going next week.. to cut it off again...

__I have been living off of cereal for the past week and a half.. that and peanut butter toast..very nice.. i might add..i'm still sick.. bleh..sucks..

 

 

my island mango candle is delightful though..

 

 

oh and by the way... I am just that fabulous

hello Darlin'

im sick as dog.. if thats possible...there was no way i was going into work today..my voice sounds as if i'm going through puberty like a 12 year old boy, and there is times when my lips are moving but no words are coming out... hmph.

this weekend was good.. weny shopping all day on saturday. Jason bought me the new Palahniuk book. 'Haunted' very good so far..

 

and what else has made my year.. is That Lucero is coming eEeEeEeeEeEe!! with the infamous Cory Bronan June 19. I'm buying my tickets today if it's possibly.. then June. 1 Bright eyes with The Faint, me and Erik will have a wonderful time.. July. 7 Alk. 3 with Rise Against. The new Alk.3 c.d is decent.. Erik burned me a copy of his bootleg one.. Underoath is this month.next Friday.. and I'm going to Chesney this friday, with the girls from work.. i'm busting out my cowboy boots.. Then Saturday. should be nice..hanging out with a familiar face..

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I watched you take off your clothes and slip under the sheets,then i turned and kicked the boots off of my feet, i pull you close with out a word because theres no need to speak, ill be gone in the morning, in the morning ill be gone.im not one for hanging on."