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there is no need to update...
i'm alone again..
single..

and i'm devastated..


and i only have myself to blame...

don't call me peanut

'what`s good for me. And now you say that, you say you love me. Well I may have your heart, but he has your body.....'







i am oh so tired..

become one

today i recieved my concealed weapons license..

an tonight or should i say this evening was...a dinner date for one..i proceeded to make myself a plate of brie cheese and fresh strawberry..and french bread. then i drank a whole bottle of white wine by myself..rented two movies and sat in my room...

and now i'm here sitting on this thing.. updating  this horrid thing.

next week i'm starting to have weekends off.. i feel so grown up...



i believe that is all i have worth updating about it..

things could be better in certain areas, but hey.. it happens..

love
britni

is this okay.?

+i could watch all the real girls over and over again.. thats the truth..
+i'm alone in my room.. minus lola here with me
+i got alot going through my head at this moment..
+i'm debating if i want to be alone this weekend..
+my bag is out ready to pack to go over to Jason's and i just can't bring myself to stuff it with crap.
+Me and my parents are going to Lake Tahoe in Feburary, this will be the first i have ever seen snow, i'm excited and my mama is already planning on buying cute ski out fits.. hah!
+i wish the ivy in my room would grow, i've had it for two years now and it seems to be the same size.
+exactly two weeks till my birthday..



i want to tattoo my body, and disappoint my parents with my actions, and not think about where my future is going, and be happy and not have to worry about what others will think..especially family..







i could burst into tears at any moment it seems, and i hate that feeling.
i was fucking beautiful once.
forgive me.
<3

typical.

the Orlando trip was a learning experience..a lonely one.. but decent.

the weekend was quiet.. i didn't do anything fun or exciting..
my b-day is 18 days away..EeEeEe... the big 22..wow..

i think i might lay by the pool today..or go through some crap and get rid of it..
i feel like being either really lazy..or really productive..but right now i'm really hungry..and i wish i had someone to go with to Cracker Barrell.

next weekend is a busy weekend..
fri. vet for lola.
sat. going to get my concealed wepons permit___at the Gun Show.
sun. going to orlando again for work, and then a show later in the evening..


i believe thats all i have for you kids.





some friend you are..do you treat and threaten all your friends like this?



brit






P.s.. i got a charlie horse in my calf the other night, and my calf muscle is soo achy..it hurts to walk, and last night i wanted to cut off my ankles because they to ached so bad , i felt like i was falling apart..i'm a grandma this has nothing to do with anything.. but i'd thought i'd waste my life for a brief second and type it out...