in the distance

 

 

 

 

great great great......fantastic.. super.. wonderful...

 

yeah sure time heals all wounds..pssh..

and it does. and that makes me smile.. you soon will know what i'm talking about. work is good.. going over to the boys house after work, and dunno what were gonna do.. hot tub? drunken kisses, and a great cuddle night.

I hope your happy, you did this to yourself i just want to remind you over n over again.. and for ur info i wasn't with him when i was with you, i'd never steep that low again..  or hurt you like that.. so think what you will.. Thank your hot temper for this..i wish we could be friends but, once again, your stubborn and yadda yadda..who knows why i'm writing this.. Your probably just bad mouthing me anyways...

 

i miss someone.. bad.real bad.

 

<3

 

 

i'm not giving up just yet...

shou fly...

so x-mas was great.. i got napoloen dynamite from the boy. =) and much other stuff from family.. my papa bear on the other hand gave us all about a heart attack. i love him. he's all we got..

 

i made an app. last night for tonight around 7 to get work done on my back, my flowers should look nice..  i'm excited. the way i look at it, I'll never have to look at it anyways since i can't see my backside anywho..my friends gave the greatest gifts ever, i love them.. the gifts and my friends that is.. i'm posting before work, b/c i'm up and don't really feel like getting ready just yet..

 

thursday can't come soon enough..

nose over tail for the boy..

 

 

 

 

'love em and leave em'..

hereinthedark::

Jan 12 Strung out

Jan 22 Against me!

Feb 2 Brighteyes

Next week i'm going to get my back worked on..probably tuesday or monday dunno.pictures to come.bringing in the new year with Emily, and good friends, and a boy..Perhaps things are falling into place now.. I have fantastic friends a great family, an yadda yadda.. my new fav band is cursive..I'm glad i had conversation with Bobby, but i'm not glad due to his g/f he's not allowed to speak to me or reply to e-mails..*sigh* anywho i must be off to the shower to get ready for this evening..

 

                                                   Merry Christmas

                                                             <3

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so i haven't felt this way in quite some time.. some will be hurt by the post so forgive me before hand..though i'm jumping ahead of myself as always, and it will probably bite me in the ass in the end.. but whatever.. it was fun while it lasted. i met a boy.. period.. hes great fantastic, wonderful.. those who read this have probably read this all too often from me. but this i must say.. is different.. whatever don't believe if u will.. but it is..Roger i know your going to read this and be heart broken, but i can't do anything reason why were not together anymore is due to your hot temper, and my lack of heart.. i can only make myself feel so much, towards a person, believe me you are wonderful without a doubt, your going to make someone unbelieveably happy, but that person isn't me..nor will it ever. but i'm getting off track.. so as always, it comes back to good ol' Bobby. the H.S love of my life, my everything for so long.. 'The one who got away' i guess you could say.. i'm idiot for what i did to him, and what i've done to boys, i can't change it. only regret it. You'll always be in my daily thoughts, there isn't a day i'd say that goes by that your not.. but it's only human to feel that way about someone, so call me a sucker for doing it, i know we've both have moved on, and will most likely never be together again. and truthfully that hurts.. but what can ya do y'know? nothing.. oh well 'sigh'  i feel as if i'm writing a script. sheesh.. but as the story goes.. I've met someone, i get a smile on my face when i think about him, the same as i did with bobby, it's happening all over again.. i can only hope it will be like how it was with me and bobby.. I'm going to do my damn hardest not to fuck it up.. to make it work.. actually get somewhere with someone....

i'm so fucking fantastic..

 

 

 

 

 

eat your heart out...

howlongmustiwait

 

 

 

i'm working six days a week.. i'm going to be fucking rich.. and every fucking one of you is jealous..

 

i'm horribly cold hearted.... but after everything.. i really don't give a damn.

 

 

sincerely.

no fucking heart Brit

leavin'

pics galore..

 

 

bon a fid cuteness

where am i going..

i'm going to the movie by myself.. and thats it.

 

it's okay to think i'm a loser.. i already do..

 

 

 

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over n out..

way to go..

i hate couples, and everything their about.. x-mas party was a hit.. biker trash didn't know what hit em'..

 

i'm going fishing with my dad tomorrow..and thats all i have to say about that..

 

and that.. were super cute and we really can't help it

::get fighted::

i'm working off of 2 and half hours of sleep...

i'm tough.. i'll fucking fight  you right now...

rich&alone

i really do hate everything that i have become in the last year or so..everything that i thought was good. or that was good has up and left..great... i'm gonna be a lonely old lady with 20 cats, and my yorkie dog..with big ol fake lips and my skin streched so taunt against my bones.. it will be fantastic...i'll be the old lady from Great Expectations.. rich and alone..

__________________________

but in other news.. i get my four wheeler back this week..christmas is less then a month away, x-mas party next week..

 

it's beautiful outside, and here i am inside writtin in this thing.. i'm going to go ride my bike....and forget about all my sorrows... and get some ice cream to..i need some sugar in my veins to cheer me up..

 

<3

 

 

 

once again i am alone.. as always..

 

 

don't make me feel bad roger, you were tired of my stupid shit and you ended it..enough said..

UPS first class

 

to be honest i have nothing to update about.. no exicitment.. no bragging.. no nothing..

i need a change...something..anything..

 

 

i am bored..emotionaly, and physically

 

 

 

died and gone to hell...

 

 

later

lost my will

 

 

 

 

 

i've got the scars to prove that love has had it's day...

destory the fucking place.

 

 

 

 

great thats fucking fantastic..

 

 

 

 

i hate florida with a passion.. and everything that is in or was in it for a time in my life.

 

true story.

finally...

so this evening was great we had our motorclothes dinner at macaroni grill.. great.. i got drunk..yay.. always a plus.. i won a leather jacket.. tomorrow is my thursday..finally roger can quit buggin me about putting pictures of him on here.. and when i do.. it's pictures of him totally wasted.. it's great..Reno 911 makes me smile, and the AFI c.d that is coming out tomorrow makes me smile to..i'm easily pleased what can i say..and i'm not voting..rock! and my nephew lee was the cutest little puppy dog for halloween yesterday... his new sayins are booya.quotes from lil jon. and awesome.. the kid is the cutest..a heartbreaker in the making... i'm off to slumber..

 

 

<3

have you ever..

tonight was once again a druken oblivion.. my costume was fabulous.. pictures to come and of my b-day.. ybor was great all up until the dumb fucking towel head looking mother fucker touched my ass, then it was all hell.. i said every cuss word in the dictionary..to the kid.. such an idiot.. it's a shame guys have to ruin my good fun.. always happens..dumb-fucks.. but a good time was had none the less.. but anywho.. my hair cut is fantastis.. i spent about 200 bucks on clothes for myself.. big surprise there..what else...tomorrow is halloween.the boy is coming over after he goes ride.. then oh and yesterday we went and saw 'Saw'.. not so scary.. but a good movie to say the lease.. very good..

 

Trick or Treat..

brit

i am the pouting queen...

 

 

 

<3

of a great bliss

so i'm cutting my hair again.. short galore..thats on wednesday.. i don't have much to update about.. but you know how that goes..thursday i'm dropping my car off at ferman on florida b/c the brakes are making noise.. brand new truck and making noise..tsk tsk.. then gweny is gonna pick me up and were heading to the beach.. then me and the boy are going to hatebreed..and on friday i'm going to against me! at state.. should be a nice two days off ....then good ol guavaween is on saturday.. if  you see three sassy young ladies walking the streets.. it'll be me celeste and emily.. my costume is fantastic.. i'll be the drunken flapper from the 1920's emily is gonna be a candy stripper and celeste a beer winch... it'll be a drunken oblivion..this entry sucks..forgive me..

____________________________________________________

the new EP from homegrown comes out tomorrow.. it's a must.

____________________________________________________

i wanna go sleep and never wake up..

when your gone...

this was one of the better b-days i had.. i now have the best beach cruiser in the world.. me and roger rode up to block buster in west chase.. i complained more then i rode.. and the day of my b-day i got two beautiful bundles of flowers.. mula galore.. yadda yadda.. Thank you again. yesterday morning me and roger went to Cracker barrel and ate breakfast then drove around..Tomorrow evening there's a few of us going out to dinner...this evening though were going to see 'unearth' at state.. and next friday is against me! i'm stoked.. and then bouncing souls.. Nov.. perhaps i'll give em a sneak at my ass.. sike.. speaking of ass.. my mother said i was losing it yesterday.. and i highly doubt it's from losing all this weight.. haha...me and gwen are gonna become skin and bone..and i can't wait..speaking of Gwen she got me the brush set from M.A.C it's fabulous.. yesterday was jack's b-day.. the 21st.

 

 

 

'i keep your photographs'

 

 

 

 

 

regret is lonely...

 

 

......payback is a motherfucker..

so today.. i shopped. bought me arnette 'rage' sun glasses.. 85 bucks.. then spent money at victoria secrets.. and MAC.b-day in a few days so that was my present to myself. and blah blah.. yadda yadda..then afterwards went to the BMX track with Roger, .. my halloween costume is fantastic..thats all i have to say about that..

p.s.. i got bored before i left also...

::a begining::

 

 

hold on, hold onto the feeling and the reason to, hold onto these four words, 'in love with you'

 

 

i miss my daddy so much..

i cried today for the first time in forever...

i wish i could go back to when i was a little girl, an everything was perfect..

 

this will never be the same.....ever...

stranger than fiction

so once again went over to gwens for nip.tuck.. fantastic season finale i must say.. then we looked at old pictures of hers. and looked through her 02 wharton year book and guess who i saw......you...... swim team....roger says he'll be happy when i get over you... his exact words 'I'll be glad when you get over that kid' since he forbids to say your name.... and i wish the same... i should really be a better girlfriend to him, but i'm not..and he puts up with it.. god only knows why...two day vaction, that i need very much...

 

 

 

and this goes out to the rice burner on bruce b downs it's called a gas petal use it dumb-fuck

so thats where you've been...i'm terribly upset..

your finally back home you finally got your one true wish..

so much for seeing me...one last time..what little hope i had in me is gone..to the west coast along with you..

i feel so stupid..

 

thats so hot right now....

i love hurricanes.. and 1 o'clock trips to the Pita Pit.. and drunken obilivions... and the Hot donuts from krispy kreme on bruce b downs.. and making fun of the kids in the parking lot.... and dancing to Pat Benatar and squeezing like mexicans in my truck...

 

 

and i still love my pink steve madden shoes..

 

lullaby.....

hot water music was just fantastic as always..went to applebee's afterwards the boy was starvin'...

and thats all i have to updated about and will update about..

 

 

 

 

 

i can disappear just like you......

Chuck Palahniuk is my muse...

tell me your fantasy

the answer is no....

the weather today was fantastic a perfect day...tomorrow is my day off.. yay! who knows what i'll do the malls know me by first name now, i got new pink plugs yesterday at the mall.. 4gauge i might add only b/c they didn't have those in a 6 or 8 gauge..blah... who knows why i'm talking about this..

and my pink steve madden shoes are fantastic..

 

 

your name is often of discussion...wish you'd change your ways..

<3

bring me back a mexican..

ah well.. went to the boys last night.. free tolls.. always a plus.. saw the picture of his brother in the October Ride BMX..awesome i might add.. went to eat at applebee's.. watched the softball game.. where we continually.. did the ying yang twin annoying scream...amusing..

so today i've watched Big Fish, and read 'Choke'.. and ate pizza.. a nice relaxing bummy day, i love it needless to say..

Gwen left for cali yesterday so work will be a bore when she's gone.. It's all up to Emily to keep me entertained...i told Gwen to bring me back a mexican or a shirt.. either or..

<3

FRANKS AND BEANS!!!!

so this weekend was one of the best ones..worked sat. then went to the mall with Emily.. where i bought only  'Aura' from american eagle finally..  emily bought 'holy' jeans and a cute jacket..

then proceeded home to the boy who was patiently waiting for me, showered went to dinner, then out with Gwen and a few of us from work.. upon arrival i'm welcomed by drunken Mike.. 'hey shes cool man, i brought her bagels this morning' referring to me.. it was quite a sight. a few drinks later and we're off to bowling..Stephs a drunken mess, mike is passed out.. Joe's cheating and changing the scores, me and Roger were the best out of all of them..Gwens 'virtual reality' off roading game, where her beer flew all over her.. Then this is where village inn comes in.. bacon and hash browns..

back to Joes house afterwards..pulling stephanie outta the car, dropping her on the ground, and leaving her there.. and laughing our asses off..it's save to say the girl won't remember a thing, and wonder why she has brusies all over her body.. haha..

today though.. went to the track with Roger since i had off..came home.. laid around, went grocery shopping together, ate dinner,  and roger went him.. and he proceeded to 'pants' me in the parking lot.. =) it's okay i got him..

 

hot water music next thursday and that is all..

 

P.S. I like you bigger then table..

cheese omelets

so fall is coming around.. acorns are falling, and the shadows are getting much much longer... the mornings are crisp, and the ground is covered in dew.. these times remind me of you. chilly nights and drunken mornings.. sloppy kisses, the smell of sweet tarts, and beef jerky..Jimmy Dean teryake style..lazy afternoons and drives around town...'going out for ice-cream'..movies every weekend, sleepy smiles and bedroom eyes...touches of warm skin..this is my favorite time of year, when everything for me was laid out in front of me...it was so much easier, now things are much more compicated, i've been forced to grow up, and make my own decisions...forced to forget things, and ive been thrown away...ignored, and hated.

 

now all i need is sappy, background music, and i'll be your typical heart broken fool...

perhaps this is the begining of the end,

 

everythings gonna be alright..

 

so..screw the rain.. i went four wheeling through the muddy trails, flip flops and all...

also got to see my uncles new zx 10R.. very nice i might add..

so i start off with four wheels and i'll end with two in the next year or so...

fin...

 

p.s if you hadn't noticed  i'm in the bragging mood...fuck it.

know i ain't no good...

so, i've been sitting around watching t.v..

 i ate a whole stick of pepperoni in one day..

 my whole road is 3 feet under water and it's fantastic, hillsborough and memorial is underwater, and the only places open are owned by your sand nigger non english speaking fools..

i've showered but i refuse to wash my hair, and it's sticking straight up, .....'thats hot'....and my dad continues to say, lets go four wheeling,, who cares about the rain, thats the fun of it.. and i agree. but flash backs come to mind on the forth when roger flipped the four wheeler over us, due to him being blind, and riding around the track at night and didn't see the 4 foot drop..tsk..tsk.. ' I ripped open my knee!' Roger continuily said.. i've niked my leg with my razor deeper then that cut he had..=P ..sissy...

this hurricane has given me more then enough time to think over countless things, over and over again.. blah blah blah... same ol story...

Sept. 23 is the only highlight of this month.. hot water music is coming.. to state.. and that is all..

44 days till i turn 21...

::

today was not the day to wear a skirt...

 

 

true story...

sink. florida. sink.

my hair cut is awesome..the boy came over last night, and i surprised him with buying the Jeremy Mcgrath book, then we ate, went to walmart, and went to bed..

and now i'm waiting for 11 o'clock to roll around b/c me and my mama are going on the boat with my dad. I'm fishing and my mom is going to sunbathe..

 

P.S hurricanes and turkey bacon rock my world..

 

..that much further west...

ahh.. well to my surprise.. my daddy bought me a four wheeler.. as well as my brother.. I'm beyond excited.. =)

tonight went to mexican with the mama and dad..

tomorrow is my friday.. w0ot. and then on thursday getting my hair cut, *think short mandy moore* and hopefully getting my oil changed if i remember to make an app. we'll see.. then friday going out on the boat all day.. saturday work.. sunday work.. then going over to Gwens place for her, engagement/house warming party.. then monday NO WORK.. yay.  probably lay around with the boy.. perhaps the beach.. or go out to 'Krombs' dunno about spelling..

 

 

 

So tomorrow is.. Sept. 1... will i ever talk to the boy again.. or see him?.... i doubt it..

 

scratch that..

 

i need a nap and sushi

mother fuck i'll do it like this...

i am sick to my bones.. atlease i feel like it.

 

 i need a nap and pizza..

 

<3

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i've been a spendarella lately.. finally i found the Jenna Jameson book that borders and barnes and noble have been sold out of..

'How to make love like a porn star' cautionary tale

it's her autobiography and so far.. it's fantasic...

yesterday i treated myself with a pedicure and a manicure, i deserve it.. Roger is coming up this weekend again with his bike, and what not, dunno what we'll do...

 

p.s. i got my sad pants on..

blah blah blah

another day. tomorrow is my friday..yay!

other then that.. nothing..

 

'And i'll be your memory'

sleepy smile...

this weekend consisted of picking up the check on friday.. spending 200 dollars  on things i hardly needed .. such as clothes, purses,jewelry, so on and so forth, the boy came up in the early evening and we proceeded to Kobe's Japanese steak house where him and our dining neighbor talked about motocross, and such.. roger seems to think there lovers, with spouses at home....who knows.... then we went and saw 'Napoleon Dynamite' AGAIN!  it was greater this time then the first..YesSsSsSs!

saturday went my merry way to work Roger stayed at my house through out the day till i got off, went to out to eat again,then decieded we were gonna drive to bradenton to pick up his bike so he could stay over again and just leave in the morning to the track off of ulmerton, so off we went, me with my sour skittles and changing c.d's ever 3 songs..
i drove home was part of the deal if we took my truck, felt like hot shit with a dirt bike in the bed of my truck, with the windows down and blaring 'Punk goes Acoustic'...

it's pretty upsetting with laying in bed with a boy a wonderful boy at that, and talking about another one, who yet still
ignores me, Though Roger reasurred me he cared for me tons, and i shouldn't let that upset me, yet it was comforting,
it still bothers me...nonetheless

*le sigh*

October...

will be the best month this year known to man.. i will now begin to list bands that are oh so wonderful that i will be seeing

[x]against me! with blood brothers 10-29[x]Unearth 10-22[x]Social Distrotion 10-6[x]Anti-flag, Stike anywhere 10-3[x]Senses Fail, Silverstien, Nametaken 10-17[x]Bad religion, and Rise Against 10-19[x]Taking back sunday Fall out Boy, Matchbook romance 10-29[x]

not only that but i turn the big ol 21 the 20th..words can not describe how excited i am, hopefully everything will fall into place when the clock hits 12:00 am, my future with be laid  out in front of me, i can oh so thankfully forget someone who i should not ever think about, I will appreciate the boy in my life more, he deserves that much, the loving of him will only happen when he pays off his credit cards and he stops getting new bikes '3 different dirt bikes in less then half a year c'mon', but until then, i will only like him. 5 months on friday kiddo..

now i'm off to see my sister and my new nephew Lucas Cole Moore.. i hear he's quite the looker..then hopefully shopping then off to work 3-6..i dunno what to do with all the money..

i am a fucking millionaire

dirty little minute

cali can go fuck it self with all there bro trucks, i'm overly aggravated and angry at the moment, over things i have no control over.. blah blah blah.. those little back and forth away messages will be the highlight of the rest of my days, being thats all you'll give me..

i know i'm wasting my time but, i'm best at holding on to things *you* when i shouldn't be..

i'm ruining a good future because of you, i'll never be same..

 

 

p.s. and if you can't tell by the pictures i got a boob job...

.....::...:::....::

                                        R.I.P Lucero shirt..

 

 

fond memories....</3

amor

soo.. i haven't much to update about..as if anyone reads this thing anymore, my friend Gwen got engaged last evening with her b/f Ryan.. I'm beyond excited for her.. though she is a mature 20 year old.. it seems all around people are having babies.. and getting married.. i know one person who had a baby from my H.S.. captain of the cheerleading team.. another girl just got married and is pregnant, so on and so forth.. and then there's me.. no accomplishments, nothing to brag about, not sure where i'm going in life. living with her mother, and working a weekend job. niiiicccceeee....i know.. hardly

i'm pathetic

 anywho my dad bought me the thing at blockbuster for unlimited rentals.. so thats going to consume my days for the next month..x-games this weekend.. bout the only highlight of my thursday night.. fmx..

anywho.. boy time tomorrow, should be a nice evening..  then work all the weekend, and all next week so on and so forth...

exoh,britniMarlana

stop beating...

I am Dead...

 

you make my heart beat faster...

you have not left my thoughts since the very first time i met you, If only i could go back to October 2003 and start all over...i do you to

i'm not okay..

so it's decieded, i'm going to New york in Nov. forever.. goodbye florida..

tonight hopefully i'm going to see 'Napolean Dynamite' very excited...Noelle made the greatest duvet cover.. pink and black stripes..

and..sometime in the next two weeks i believe i'm gonna get some ink done on my back.. b/c it's far too plain for my taste..

but as for now, My mom took my truck to work today, so i could take her car in for her, then i'm gonna go price beach cruiser's b/c my dad is wonderful and gonna buy me one..then me lauryn and noelle are off to the pool...

 

p.S.. i'm a poser and have BMX stickers on my truck. yes!

kiss an angel...

friday was grand went to Banana Joes at University.. we were the cutest girls there to say the lease..got drunk off of red wine, giggles galore..and mac-n-cheese for dinner.. at 2 o'clock in the morning..

spent sat. sobering up from the evening before was not up for anything.. Sorry Dave..

Sunday went n saw the notebook with the boy, i do admit i did get teary eyed, but the book is much better then the movie..

that is all..

<3, moi

i'm gone..

so tonight is girls night, i'll be over in the new tampa and wesley chapel area..Me and Emily are sleeping over at
Gwen's since her boy is away..

there will be lots of alcohol consumed and girlish giggles through-out the night..

should be a wonderful time..

but as for now i'm off to the gym, and run some errons, by myself as always..

<3 me.

 

P.S whats with chinese food tearing up boys tummy's..

 

-lyrical beauty..

-laid out by the pool for little over an hour

-spent about an hour and a half at the gym

-ran 3 miles

-cleaned the inside of my truck out..

- work tomorrow..

....i'm thinking about becoming a stunning bronzed blonde...keep going back n forth on the idea of being blond again...who knows.and i've decieded that i'm not going back to college.. =)

p.S. If i told you i was dying would u stop ignoring me then?

remember many many moons ago.. far too long ago.. when you were suppose to bring a burrito back for me..

 

so for your info i'm still waiting for my amazing burrito you so bragged about....

exoh,moi

..giving up..n..giving in..

so here i am all alone in this house..the boy is away to Dade city for a race..my mother is not coming home this evening, so it's just me jack and honey..I'm watching 'G.I.Jane' at the moment.. and before that i watched 'Blow'.. i haven't really updated in quite some time, so i thought this might be nice for a change...So i've become on this fix for the last 3 weeks of going to the gym, and yes i must say i see much improvement *always a plus* jumping from subject though, i was literally [   this   ] close to getting my yorkie, she was in my hands, i was thinking of names for her, but as it has. i'm just now building up my credit, b/c she's 1400, only way i would have been able to get her was to finance her.. so in the end i'm yorkie-less.. but i'm on the hunt.. believe me..

 anywho i don't have much to update about anymore, reason why my post have only consisted of pictures and random quotes here and there..

 

 

i can't really grasp on why i'm being ignored by someone, i continually e-mail them and IM them.. but i get nothing, so i just won't anymore.. sorry for bothering you in the meantime..

 

britniMarlana....

boredom strikes yet again....

my mom said and i quote

"You'll look like a bull dyke if you cut your hair shorter."

muahahaha.... i find it amusing..

my reply..

"so what i'll be a cute bull dyke mama"...

 

<3

'The Notebook' is so fucking the story of my life.....

i just read the book..

 

*sigh*

p.S. 'butterfly effect' came out today on DVD.. If i knew what was to happen and i had my choice to choose in the begining if i wanted to take that road and still deal with the result..or go on with my life with just the memory of what could have been...

sweet little thing...

nights like these....

i'm poor and miserable...

 

i just wanna break down.. and feel nothing anymore..

i listen to lucero day in and day out.. sad love songs make me feel some what human at this moment...

i hate regret.

seeing you...

i have no reason to update anymore..

i'm addicted to cereal..*frosted flakes*

i have lost 5 pounds due to spending my mornings in the gym

Forth of july two years ago was fantastic..

i really need a hair cut...

and  i'm a brown beaner due to Adventure Island..

 

<3,moi

 

so tonight makes it two people who told me i should be a 'dancer'

awesome..i think i just found my calling...

 

<3

i hate him..

once again i'm mad at the world...

</3

 this is the first time i have cried in a really long time..

fuck off everyone i'm tired of this shit.. seriously..

i'm so mad right now... for what? nothing.. i really need a fucking life..

 

 

i hate everything and everyone at this moment.

i want something tragic to happen to me really..now i'm gonna go eat ice cream

[x]edit[x] so i'm not angry anymore..

i do you to

blockbuster night...by myself and a pint of Ben&Jerry's Peanut buttercup ice-cream...

 

<3

:::::

so i went a little picture crazy, and i spent way too much money at the mall with son..eeeccckkk..well worth it though..

just call me stinky-ass

and i'm addicted to slim-fast....

 

 

 

 

bang::bang

revenge is best served cold...

i can't wait to see 'The Notebook'.. fathers day is on sunday..not have much planned the rest of the week, i have a meeting i have to go to tomorrow evening, other then that..

go to the gym, tan, ride the trail.. sit around.eat.sleep.gym.tan.ride.. same thing day in and day out. blah blah blah.. someone come give me some excitment...or hey.. i'll even come to you for it..

surprised payphone call..highlight of my day..poo boy, gotta love it..

<3 always, brit

::ggggggggg::

well i'm heading over to the boys house.. got my windows tinted yesterday been working with my daddy alot this week, always a plus, i love my new truck.. and i like my boyfriend a lot.. and that is all.....and thats all that matters....

 

p.s. i miss my best friend a whole lot, no bored calls in over a week??... where o where can you be.....

 

<3, brit..

::oh c'mon::

4:30 and it's show time.. o'snap.. i'm beyond excited..

 

eeeeeeeeee....

yay

i hopefully get my brand new TRUCK tomorrow.. awesome..ya'll are jealous.

 

heart,Brit

you vandal::

watching t.v 'Pimp my Ride' is the dumbest show ever. and i mean EVER!

This evening when me and my mom were taking back the video's there was a pocket bike in front of blockbuster and i was so tempted to just jump on it, and speed off slowly.

today at work i read up on the new R1 04.. was impressed..

and now i'm waiting till 10:30 for wildboyz..

heart,brit

 

p.s. thank you roger for putting up with my mean self.

i won't do

japanese steak house-running from movie theater to movie theater looking for a movie only to rent 'Monster' & 'Club Dread'-TCBY-work was slow due to rain-tomorrow i have nothing-this week nothing-next weekend nothing roger's going away for a race-meh....oh well..

highlights-Roger sneezing on my face-him racing to the bathroom after dinner- kissing a pillow for no reason-Troy calling countless times to check up on him.

now i'm here bored, i finished my mix c.d and with nothing on my mind..i take that back..

<3,me

::gangsTa::

ran,showered, ran errons, then headed to ybor and shopped and now i'm going to dinner with my folks....

Bobby continually called me 'big boned' and 'fat' over the phone this afternoon so in result i retaliated with running 2 miles, and only eating an orange for dinner.. TAKE THAT!

 

heart, Brit

another day gone by..

 

 

::to be saved by chaos....

 

<3, me

P.S. My new James Dean calender picture is HOT!

i'm dying as i look at it...

 

*sigh*

    it's 10 o'clock and i'm up and wide awake listening to NameTaken on repeat..

                                 everyone who reads this is jealous...

                                                      <3.B

wore my best clothes

this weekend i have no complaints..roger came over on Saturday, was going to eat at cheesecake factory but the wait was extremely long so we went to bamboo club, worked sunday was extremely slow.. Roger came over again after work went to subway, watched the Sunday stew as always, went to bed early got up early today, and went knee boarding/tubing over on tarpon lake with my dad and mom.. bar-b-qued and what not.. was a great time.

came home.. took a nap ate dinner watched t.v.. got into a scuffle with the mom..she threw a medicine bottle at me and hit me right on the cheek bone. in result i have tiny cut a welt i'm gonna have to sport for who knows how long..forgive me for my entries have not been as witty or humerous as usual..

fin..

 

i'll just.. i dunno.

ah well worked today..then after work me and Gwen went over to Heidi's to give her some presents we bought for the baby.. then we went to dinner at Ruby tuesday.. it was great seeing her again.

Last night-was eventful.. met up with son and his friend Mike. who by the way was eck.. horrible manners, and no respect for girls.. i hate drunks who keep talking to me. 'whats wrong? smile' and then they hang on me.. sick..  but i am thankfull for Eric from clearwater who kept me company during son and his friends danced, and i stood by myself by the exit door, he moosey alonged and said 'you look like your not enjoying yourself' ..good call..  i learned he was from cali,  enjoyed good bands,and just moved to clearwater to start his marketing busisness he looked outta place also.. so we stood by ourselves made fun of the fat chicks his friends were trying to hook up with, he told me his story how he stole the mints outta the bathroom... and we totally agreed on just bum rushing the idiots on the floor, and start a mosh, and skank our hearts away..and that was that...

Tomorrow is boyfriend time hopefully.. it's much needed, work, and more work.. then knee boarding on monday with the family..good times hopefully.

)(*&^%$#@!

It's hopeless now
It seems that there's nothing left
I don't care anymore, this failure that surrounds me I accept
Because I can't be all the things I want to without you
And it won't help to watch you smile without me
And begging to hold on,
I desperately try to remove memories of moments
that I thought you were happy
And I pretend not to care
I hope you're miserable without me
But that's not love nor true
You could not be better off now
I'm waiting for the day when I'd forget you
But I don't know if its right to hate this through
When you're the only one I see who truly keeps me here
But all you've left me is alone
And I miss you now
When all I can do is wish it wasn't this way, wish it wasn't too late
So is it wrong to ask for a second chance?
To prove my regret
To make up for the world
It's hopeless now, so hopeless to forget that there's no one here for me
Because I can't be all the things I want to without
And I'm waiting for the day when I'd be with you
Forever it will be, a dream that's always short of true
When you're the only one I see, who truly keeps me here
But all you've left me is alone

 

<3,B

..things i would do..

best convo last night..

xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:12 PM]:  and why is carmen electra famous
RoXy336953 [10:13 PM]:  b/c shes got fake tits
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:13 PM]:  other than being preety there is nothing to her
RoXy336953 [10:13 PM]:  photogenic?
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  look at pamerla anderson
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  pamala*
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:  looks get you every where
RoXy336953 [10:14 PM]:   people like pretty things.
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:14 PM]:  i know thats true
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:14 PM]:  its sad but true
RoXy336953 [10:15 PM]:  very 
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  well its sad for non good looking people
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  me and you dont have to worry
RoXy336953 [10:15 PM]:  lol
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  seriously
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:15 PM]:  i talk my way out of everything
xEIGHToneTHREEx [10:16 PM]:  just smile and be charming you get whatever you want

 Last evening, me and roger went to Olive Garden.*which i might add was not our first date no matter what you say Roger* i have nothing on the agenda as for today.. i work thursday through sunday this week..::bank::.. =) now i'm gonna go down stairs do my exercises, eat blue berry muffins.. and starve myself for the rest of the day.. my goal is.. 115.. i don't give a fuck if it's not healthy..

<3, britniMarlana

hey you...

ah.. weekend so far can't complain.Roger spent the night all weekend. Friday went to a show at masquerade.. saturday worked..then came home.. today went to Brunch with my family down in Harbour Island, roger went riding while i did that..so now i'm here bored.. waiting for him..

.....my mind is running a million thoughts a minute, what i would  not give..

__________

We were making plans together not so long ago, but things change everything changes, and i know in my heart your not coming back..

::never been kissed::

Now the moon is up and the stars are out yeah it's quite a sight to see
It's times like this oh how I wish you were still next to me
Maybe our paths baby will cross somewhere down the line
Who's to say
I just hope you're doing fine
I miss you so
I hope you're doing fine
That's all for now
I hope you're doing fine

___________________________________________

nothing to update about..same ol same ol.. tomorrow is friday. yay!

::life in your heart::

fighting back the impulse
turn my head and close my eyes
spending these nights awake and cold and paralyzed
wonder how we got this far and
never realized the common thread that binds our lives
and I know you hurt
but I can help you if you can...
take my hand
and we'll live inside the dreams we left behind
take my hand
as we move from this place to a better life
take my hand
(if you take my hand)
fighting back the feeling that you always could deny
anything but everything we know is just a lie
as I cremate this memory and watch the darkened ashes rise
and beneath the smoke
I'll stand and ask you if you can
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show
fight back the urges
turn my head and close my eyes
and will I wake tomorrow still alive
I'm still dreaming
I'm still waiting
I'm still sure
(I'm still sure)
you're still living in a life
that isn't yours
(that isn't yours)
and this is part of me
I hope you never see
this is my life inside your heart
take my hand
and I'll promise not to ever let it go
take my hand
'cause this hope is greater than you'll ever know
(take my hand)
and this is all I'll ever ask of you to show

amour

had a much needed conversation with a certain someone.. <3

the boy leaves on monday for a whole month..what is a girl to do..hopefully seeing him tomorrow..

 

g'nite

::Blind Truth::

spent about 150 bucks today. got  2 shirts and a skirt, two c.d's..a new bra..and some random stuff for me and my mom at home.. and i bought my sister some things also..

                  this is the result of being bored and having a camera phone..

this evening i'm going to a graduation for my cousin with my daddy..

::the exes::

ah.. well the weekend was decent nothing to complain nor brag about.. Roger slept over on friday and went and ate at.. i can't remember.. then came home an watched only half of scary movie 3 because it sucked..

Saturday worked.. was surprising slow, then came home and laid around and watched t.v ::Sunday:: work was even slower read my new cosmo, then me and my mama went to Bonefish..::Tomorrow:: I'm going to the gym, tan. shower, and then head out shopping, just because i need new clothes and because i want to...nuff said..

It would be so much better if i could totally erase things from my memory, go back, reverse things..change it, to the way i want it to be. Make things better for everyone, especially for me.. call me selfish...

highlight of my weekend

Mike: ' That wood is eff'd up'

Jimmy: 'Thats some effin s'

::invisible monster::

ahh well nothing to update about as usual..went to the track last night with Roger <3 my dinner consisted of a slim jim and moutain due.. Today i went to the doc.. laid around, and cleaned the kitchen.. made sweet tea.. and possibly might go rent a few movies and get a magazine.. who knows..

Tomorrow:: i'm getting my hair cut yet again..shorter though..then later in the evening. me and him will do something not sure what though at the moment.. but something..

I've been thinking far too much lately keeping myself up at night with all these thoughts running through my head, it's impossible for me to think straight, what will be, what is, and what has. just random things.. believe me i'm completely happy, i have a wonderful boyfriend, and a great mother and father, and the worlds best dog, but yet in the back of my mind, there it is. always lingering, and never going away. i hate it.

 

 

 

P.S.  I have cancer.

::shenanigans::

ah well i just got up, nothing to really update about, went to borders yet again yesterday, and got two books, and looked at cute hair cuts.. Tomorrow Me and Son are heading up to HCC to register for classes for fall, Tiger Army is on thursday, i doubt i'll go not really up for the scene..

Today:: i don't have much planned clean house perhaps, and finish my laundry that i started on sunday::gah:: go tan, and read my other book. what else can i babble on about.. Nikki goes into surgery today, good luck sweetie. I miss that friendship back in middle school she was one the greatest friends ever. ahh.. My Two favorite girls at work are leaving..such a downer..

anywho, that is all..

<3

..fat & sassy..

This weekend  i have no complaints.. hung out with the boy on Friday, ate at a Japanese restraunt, where he became a lush like there's no tomorrow..

saturday, worked...nothing to brag about went to borders bought a book watched Fifth Element..

Sunday-Today.. Worked power went out for like 20 minutes felt like i was back in H.S..during a fire drill.. it was exciting..after afterwards Roger came over proceeded to Cody's and waited forever in a day for our food.. ended up with two free apps though.. went to Superwalmart.. came home.. wrestled..he beat my ass in slaps..laid around and watched the Sunday stew.. i couldn't ask for a better sunday or a better boy in my life....  i got lucky this time around <3 plus how could you not like someone who does  MX sound effects on your butt..?!?! thats what i thought..

                                                 I miss him already..

 

<3

 

::can't go on::

ah, well yesterday was a pleasant surprise the boy came over, did some running around then went to the pool, and basked in the sun..laid around and watched t.v... nothing special.. just spent some much needed time with him, and well deserved..

today i'm burning c.d's to cash.. running some errons for my mama, and that is about it.. Tomorrow is payday and perhaps i'll call up Nauni and Lauryn and see if they wanna go to the beach..hmph

                                                          <3

...Give it all...

so i have nothing to really update about.my mom got a new car.. went and saw 'Mean Girls' with my mama and went shopping was nice.. and a good movie.. This evening we went to maggino's was good also..

Tomorrow hopefully hanging out with Ganster seems to never work out.. blah... My days are filled nothing, school is out and i would like to have a second job to fill in the time i do nothing.. sucks.. but oh well... i have to sign up for fall classes sooner or later.. more leaning toward the 'later'...blah..

and i have yet to see my boyfriend. hopefully on thursday that will happen have to see...also tomorrow is The OC is a must to watch.. i'll be sitting in front of the t.v at 9 o'clock sharp...

::feel this good::

'Those are some big tits you go there Britni', 'I mean breast'...muahahaha..'Chicken breast'...

 

P.S. Before dinner i became a cam-whore..s0o0o.. these pics are the result of it..

<3

                  and the lonely weekend begins...

                                   <3

::lied to you::

i do not feel like getting dressed today.. i want to lay around in my undies and t-shirt.. and drink sweet tea.

one more week of school left..i'm excited... i need a summer job...

This weekend i'm boyfriendless.. perhaps i'll call up Lauryn and see a movie.. or have a girls night out with some friends..who knows.

alright, i must go...

<3

...Understood....

i haven't got much to update about.. Saturday after work went shoe shopping with Gwen, was quite fun we made fun of softball girls, and totally recalled walking everywhere back in middle school, and goofed off in walgreens..

Sunday.. worked was very slow.. then came home and headed over to Roger's <3  laid around watched t.v and all the sunday stoops...

and that is all.. today i'm going to bask in the sun and become a brown mexican...

                                                                        you love me just say it..

                                                                                     <3

45.

the show last night was nice.. it was grand being in that atmosphere again..

                      It was wonderful having him in my bed and waking up with him..

The carnival is this evening with my mom and my sister ::should be a hoot:: I Love them more then this world....

 

P.S. Bobby whats up with the domestic violence eh? J-Bird for Life.. it's horrible poor kiddo.

                                                 i want to quit school

                           get a shit end job working 9-5 with weekends off....

                                                      end of story...

                                                             <3

a skit skit skit skit....

So.. i just got done washing me and my mama's car in less then 45 minutes.. nuff said i rock fucking hardcore as a daughter...

i feel like i shed 20 pounds of sweat outta me....

thee end....

<3

P.S. I miss my boyfriend....Thursday is much too far away....

::such a fool::

Matches on Thursday::Unearth on Friday... need i say more

My mother is out of town for two days, and i'm alone in my house starving, and bored, and there ain't shit on HBO or regular t.v..fuck..

I need a good laugh at the moment...

 

<3

                                          finally i get to see him... yay!

 

::this is the last time::

so.. once again.. my day consist of nothing tanned.. laid around the house, watched t.v, cleaned around... yadda yadda..

____________________________________________________________

but the weekend is here, and tomorrow i get to see him <3 very excited about that we possibly might go see Punisher or some other movie haven't decieded..

::tomorrow:: pick up check, lay out by the pool, eat sushi, and wait to go over to rogers....and ::saturday:: work..::sunday:: work...

<3

::fat & sassy::

I'm in a bitch mood for no apparent reason..I'm hungry and there ain't shit on t.v. i sit all day and eat and get fat, i'm out of tanning oil so i'm losing my tan, and i'm pissy.. what else can i complain about.. oh i'm fat and losing me tan... fuck it. blah..

slrjnghosuhgksjfngkdsjfghdlfjhgdlfuighdklfjgnd,fgndkfjghdflkjghdf,gndfgkdlf

 

i'm going now to stuff my fat face and soak in self pity..

<3

.......dfghfgh......

                                   my bed was far to empty this morning

                                                        i miss him

                                                             <3

took away all my anger

Monday always comes to soon, the wedding was absolutly perfect, Roger looked handsome as ever. <3 Me and Gwen had a fab time drinking long island ice teas and dancing with the kids...

It was nice waking up to him two nights in a row, i can't seem to get enough i was quite sad when he had to leave this morning at 6

<3

::bored::

                                                      I need him so much closer....

::heartonmysleeve::

so it's a thursday evening mother is getting ready to go out 'Salsa Night' with the gals and here i am sitting at home at 9:37 alone a bit scared b/c i just got done watching the movie 'Idenity' what a freaky movie... i have done nothing all day cleaned house, did laundry, tanned, came home watched White Oleander for the 5th time, along with Drumline, and Life or something like it, Old School is on right now but i'm not in the mood to sit down stairs and watch it alone...

I hate that Roger lives so far it seems like ages till i get to see him...horrible. but what can ya do.. not a damn thing.. I'll live. Tomorrow is Hiedi's bridal shower, and then saturday work blah, sunday easter and her wedding, hopefully i'll remember to take pictures.

I'm so bored..lord have mercy.. i should have went along with my mother.

Tomorrow i'm lay out by the pool, and go get Heidi's wedding gift, and what not.

as for now i'm getting in the tub and soak in my sorrow..

<3

::bored in my pants::

i was bored today.. so i took pictures of my pants..

niicee..

 

blah...

                                    Baby you make my heart beat faster
                                    Baby you make my heart beat faster
                                       I know let alone to rest alone
                                              You’re making me
                                      I had to run the damage is done
                                                  I give it up
                                      There nothing left take the rest
                                              You’re draining me

::lets take back down::

Friday was good. hung out with Roger went to dinner, then laid in bed all evening watching t.v..

Saturday.. Was drunken oblivion and awesome conversation with Gwen swaping sex stories and the truth behind co-workers.

Sunday..Work, Roger came over afterwards.. <3  i could lay around with him and be lazy everyday all day..

:this week:: Friday is Hiedi's bridal shower and then sunday is Easter and her wedding. Tuesday i'm getting my hair done, and Friday afternoon i'm going on the boat with the folks, and that is all and in between that time i have to find a cute springy outfit for sunday.

<3

::make me feel::

finally friday i get to see Roger.. woot!

payday like a motherfucker...jealous..

tomorrow evening i'm going to a 'Pleasure Party' with some girls from work should be an excellent time..

anywho..adios..

 

<3

::here i am::

I miss my boyfriend.

i wish it was Friday +payday+

No matter what u think or say Roger. Yeah Yeah Yeahs are the greatest.

It's fucking freezin outside.

I'm going up to the store now to spend my last 10 bucks on ice-cream.

<3

P.S Welcome home Bobby. You J-Bird

                                               BEFORE & AFTER

sexy slices...

                       i keep going back and forth on cutting my hair..meh.

                   finally no work.. Orlando was cancelled till next monday.

              I'm being lazy all week, bask in the sun and pop diet pills all day.

                                                              <3

P.S. I miss Roger like something terrible..I'm growing fonder of him more and more  everyday

::the boy is simply amazing::
I love every minute i am with him
It doesn't get any better then this..

<3

hibitybibityshit....

                                          Friday-Hanging out with the Boy
                         Saturday-Hanging out with the Boy +plus+ tattoo fest
               Sunday-Supposely hanging out with Ganster *keeping fingers crossed*
                        Monday-Going to Orlando to shop my socks off with Gwen

             but mostly i'm looking forward to Roger no need for me to explain why..
                                            I'm missing my boy terribly
                                                            <3

                     i was bored before class, so i became a camera whore..

fuck it...

i'm over it, only thing left is memories and good times. end of story.

My weekend was fantastic. no complaints what so ever.. <3

I work all week blah..Tattoo fest this weekend and that is all..

i'm in a crappy mood for some odd reason..

blah blah blah...

 

surrender

                                                  yeah yeah yeah......

                       ain't life grande.. ::i'm laughing on the inside really,promise::

                            shady shady shady....tsk tsk* shame on you... =)

                                                ::another note::

                              Last night was great and tonight will follow..

G-rated porn

                           i lay around  all day and take hot pictures of myself..

                                                        [x] edit [x]

                      scribble all over hot pictures of myself....equals even hotter...

modern day romance....

                                                   Happy St. Patty's Day

                             Two days till the best weekend in forever............

                                           I'll be drinking irish tonight...

                                                          <3

falling faster...

                                            last night was wonderful
                                 Roger beat me by 2 points in putt putt..
                     I haven't been this happy with someone in a very long time..
                                               ::simply amazing::
                                                         <3

                                                  ::Next week::
                                    
                    I get to see Roger three days in a row ::friday thru. sunday::

waitformetomoveoutwest...

                                 last night was a drunken oblivion ::very nice::
                              Me and Lisa Spent 26 bucks on sushi ::very nice::
                               Cranberry and vodak does it to me every time

                           I get to see Roger today nuff said ::miss him terribly::

                                           Next week is going to rock

                                                           <3

Make you see....

                           negative on seeing Enternal Sunshine-no biggie

                                50 first dates-Adam did not let me down...

                 Roger-absolutely wonderful, felt that i had not seen him in ages
             It was nice having him close to me, his touch, his smile, his skin, his lips..
                                               nothing quite compares
                        I haven't felt this way in a very long time, it's kinda scary...

 

                               I just don't want to get hurt in the end as always...

 

                                                            <3

body aches...

                                              one day and counting
                        i feel like it's christmas eve and i'm awaiting for presents
                     eeekkk.. i'm so stoked.. it's been too long since i've seen him...

                                                         <3

with every wish...

              I hung out with the best girl in the whole wide world last night. <3    
                  [ late evenings at the 24 hr walmart are the best.. ]   
                
                  i just banged the shit outta my knee on my desk..ow..  
          
              I get to see Roger on wednesday..highlight of my spring break. <3

                    Going to the Beach on tuesday with a group of friends..

                     Seeing a sneak preview on 'Eternal Sunshine' -for free

 

 

fin.....

                    me:  perhaps i started missing you the minute you left. 
                                              him:  O really?
                                               me:  maybe..
       him: I seriously miss u 2 i wasnt gonna tell u n have u think im a crazy stalker
                                                me:  haha..

 

i could just melt.. <3

heart can beat...

                                          last night was great =)
                                     he made me laugh, and smile 
                                   and giggle like a little school girl
                                       he was polite and funny
                                       and kissed my forehead..
                                      i loved every minute of it.

                                                   <3

wh0a wh0a hold me now...

                                                   i'm smiling again

                                            i Have my bestfriend back..

                                            strawberry festival tomorrow..

                               hopefully hanging out with a certain someone also..

                                                           <3

.thisisthelasttime.

                               the more you remember the more that it hurts...

....always...

                                             you said you'd be my dream
                                              i could have you every night
                                        and if by morning, id forgotten you
                                        well, no big deal, thatd be all right
                                             cos youre the reoccuring kind
                                               you are the reoccuring kind
                                                        you never really leave my mind...