begining and an end.

Roger,




you amaze me really you do...i believe you swore you wouldn't be like this again.. you wouldn't be an asshole and push me away again.. you said you would try your hardest.. well damn it..your not!

i told myself  i wouldn't give up on you.. that you'd change your ways..and then i'd have something to regret..that regret being losing you.. but i can't see that in my future.. your not going to change no matter what you, will always have a temper, and a jealous streak in you..

please don't laugh at my relationship.. things may not be as good as it was with you.. but i'm happy and he loves me.. and thats all i need in my life.

i try to be something with you.. anything.. but when you say your never going to call me again.. well then.. why should i bother..so i'm not..


forgive me for the heart ache i've given you..you brought it upon yourself, thank god you realize that.. if anything you know you did wrong. you fucked up. not me. and i hope you regret this even more...




Britni

it hurts.

All the Real Girls..i would have to say in my top 10 all time fav. movies..

-my hair now resembles the color of wheat, and blonde..
-i gotta go up to Orlando the end of the week for school..
-Jason's new apartment is very nice..a nice step up from the last place..
-My B-day is less then a month away..
-i washed my truck inside and out today after work..Why does it always feel like your vehicle runs better clean?
-and why do i always think it's the weirdest thing to see asian people girls guys whatever and they talk and they don't have the funny accent...their normal..

months and days go by so fast.. i live for my weekends..




i'm sleepy now..
g'nite

don't leave me hangin'

i'm alive..


it's almost the weekend..

i'm getting my hair cut on friday along with a dye job..
lola gets her first hair cut on friday also..
pennywise saturday..


i believe that is all..
done
fin
x

summer skin

this is Jason's Poker face...
i seriously need to move out...
i spent 24 bucks in sushi tonight..
lola gets her first hair cut this week...

..hack it off

so i'm home..due to the incident at Jason he can't turn on his air..and i was fucking dying over there it was a still heat..and i felt faint..so call me a sissy.. yadda..yadda...

me and him went to the mall today.. then over to his pops..

last night was..eventful to say the lease...drag shows are always a hoot..


lola is pooped and so am i.. i'm gonna shower and watch a movie..c-ya..





fin
smile faker

showshold your tounge boy..

so i'm packing for Jason this evening and you'd think i was going on a month trip to some exotic island..i am a horrible packer..i.e.. i over pack all the time..

Lola chewed on my gold flip flops, and i'm a little sad about it..
she goes to the vet tomorrow for her shots and shes not gonna be happy about that..

                  I got a raise today at work..a very pleasant surprise


there are a million shows coming up in the next two months that i'm ecstatic about

-Sept. 17th Every Time i Die
-Sept. 24th Pennywise
-Oct. 9th My Chem/Alk.3/Reggie and the Full Effect
-Oct. 23rd Norman Jean/Darkest Hour/Still Remains
-Oct.28th Coheed & Cmabria/Blood Brothers/mewithoutyou
-Oct.30th Death Cab for Cutie
-Nov.7th From Autumn to Ashes/BOY SETS FIRE
-Nov 11th THRICE/Underoath/The BLED
-Nov. 16th Hawthrone Heights/Silverstein/BAYSIDE


i already have my tickets for Pennywise and the Alk.3 shows..now it's just the other ones i must get..



i need a hair cut, my hair hasn't been this long since last march, i hate it...and i'm tired of being dark, i wish i was still blonde..stupid me..

okay i'm going crazy..
i'd really like to go to the beach one of these days soon before it gets cooler..
done..

<3

.,bad outlaw,.

do i even have a boyfriend?...i haven't seen the boy in ages, i'm begining to forget his face..



-lola is the biggest brat ever..i only have myself to blame for that.
-todays my thursday..thank goodness..one more day till i'm a bon-a-fid bum...
-my coffee hasn't kicked in yet, so i'm draggin getting ready...







back to the basics of you and me..yadda yadda blah blah blah....




brit.

up to me..

i had just forgotten how much i like coheed and cambria..i should really listen to them more often and remove The Bled cd outta my truck, i'm playing it out..




done.
fin
end
bye.

and..i know...

soo..today was another day..sheesh..long and far too busy for anyone as sane as me..

two more days and this thing is over with..and then i get a four day vacation wed. thru saturday...i'm excited it's needed..i think i've lost 10 pounds running around..not eating, and living off of full trottles, and sugar fixes...

lola got a physical today at the vet..shes healthy..of course.. me and my mama and dad went to dinner this evening after i had a united way meeting for ferman..free cocktails was the only reason why i went.. and after only a glass of white wine, i was already a little buzzed..due to the stated above lack of food..


a pleasant surprise i recieved in the mail was a credit line of 9,000 from kawasaki..very nice..i'm soo tempted to go out, and spend galore on crap...


anywho i'm beat and i have a very long day tomorrow...i want this weekend to come and go..with a snap of my fingers.




night...
brit

Meet Lola..

work is crazy this week due to that dang 9/11 ride we have at work.. next week though hopefully i'll have some time off due to me working so much..



my girl has been wonderful though..she's so smart, and i'm not just saying that because shes mine.. but she is..shes a social butterfly, and cute to boot...



ta daaa!!....


night.


p.s.. i slipped a picture of Jack in here to..just cuz..

i won't hold on..

i have a brand new baby girl..one who i can call all mine..she's a mix..between shiz shu and poodle....shes the most adorable little bear ever...



                                               Her name is Lola..




brit.

FREEMASON!

i lost my burts bee's chap stick tonight..i think i might be the sadest girl in the world right now..

i got it rough..psshhh..i'm full of horse shit...



i'm drunk
britniMarlana...