is this okay.?

+i could watch all the real girls over and over again.. thats the truth..
+i'm alone in my room.. minus lola here with me
+i got alot going through my head at this moment..
+i'm debating if i want to be alone this weekend..
+my bag is out ready to pack to go over to Jason's and i just can't bring myself to stuff it with crap.
+Me and my parents are going to Lake Tahoe in Feburary, this will be the first i have ever seen snow, i'm excited and my mama is already planning on buying cute ski out fits.. hah!
+i wish the ivy in my room would grow, i've had it for two years now and it seems to be the same size.
+exactly two weeks till my birthday..



i want to tattoo my body, and disappoint my parents with my actions, and not think about where my future is going, and be happy and not have to worry about what others will think..especially family..







i could burst into tears at any moment it seems, and i hate that feeling.
i was fucking beautiful once.
forgive me.
<3