closure

so i haven't felt this way in quite some time.. some will be hurt by the post so forgive me before hand..though i'm jumping ahead of myself as always, and it will probably bite me in the ass in the end.. but whatever.. it was fun while it lasted. i met a boy.. period.. hes great fantastic, wonderful.. those who read this have probably read this all too often from me. but this i must say.. is different.. whatever don't believe if u will.. but it is..Roger i know your going to read this and be heart broken, but i can't do anything reason why were not together anymore is due to your hot temper, and my lack of heart.. i can only make myself feel so much, towards a person, believe me you are wonderful without a doubt, your going to make someone unbelieveably happy, but that person isn't me..nor will it ever. but i'm getting off track.. so as always, it comes back to good ol' Bobby. the H.S love of my life, my everything for so long.. 'The one who got away' i guess you could say.. i'm idiot for what i did to him, and what i've done to boys, i can't change it. only regret it. You'll always be in my daily thoughts, there isn't a day i'd say that goes by that your not.. but it's only human to feel that way about someone, so call me a sucker for doing it, i know we've both have moved on, and will most likely never be together again. and truthfully that hurts.. but what can ya do y'know? nothing.. oh well 'sigh'  i feel as if i'm writing a script. sheesh.. but as the story goes.. I've met someone, i get a smile on my face when i think about him, the same as i did with bobby, it's happening all over again.. i can only hope it will be like how it was with me and bobby.. I'm going to do my damn hardest not to fuck it up.. to make it work.. actually get somewhere with someone....