....laugh

 

 

to a new year
to forgiving and forgeting

to everyone i love who i admire who i need in my life
to black cocktail dresses and bow ties

to going back to my roots
living and loving

to all the laughs and smiles i still have to come

 

to all of thee above

cheers....

 

 

 

<3

 

 

..babybabybaby..

 

 

i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him
i love him

 

 

 

 

i have nothing else to say..christmas is around the corner..
i love it.
this weather is wonderful..

 

 

i could not ask for more...

 

 

 

 

 

 

<3

i got it..

minus 6 days and counting - B-Day

i am in love with the new rilo kiley c.d.

i'm not to fond waking up in the morning not next to him..

 

 

 

 

 

 

things are pretty damn wonderful right now...this moment.
<3

 

never goes away.

 

 

square one...my slate is clear.rest your head on me my dear..
took a world of trouble..took a world of tears.took a long time to get back here..

 

my heart is in my throat.
should it feel like this?

 

my eyes have seen better days.

 

 

 

 

 

i love me some stevie ray vaughn

 

 

 

<3

kiss you on the mouth.

 

 

*yesterday.basked in the wonderful sun, i feel fall coming early this year.the weather outside is beautiful.
*dinner last night with two wonderful boys, who make me smile and laugh..
*then watched the fight.amazing.

 

Today*

enjoying the weather outside.and wait for the boy to join me at the movies.
love.love.love.love.

 

 

<3

 

dotdotdot

 

 

 

 

 

oh to be loved...

 

 

 

 

 

xo-

 

 

 

 

 

moving.right.along

 

 

where o' where has half the year gone.???

 

 

 

....sigh..

 

 

life/love/family/me/work/him/ = wonderful

 

 

 

 

don't hate.

ultimate detox...

 

 

life has been absolutely fabulous...

lido beach for the forth.
spending evenings in strong arms..
loving the heat and rain..

 

to feel this amazing...no one deserve this..not even lil ol' me..
trust me..

 

my daddy won a motorcycle for the forth..lucky man.
my family is happy..spending days together..

 

 

thank you. thank you. thank you...

 

 

 

<3

 

 

to lose

 

 

 

‘Cause I’m bettin’ my whole heart that you’re gonna’ love me
And I’ve never took that kind of chance before

 

 

 

 

 

faithless street.

 

 

 

..

 

...

 

i found your note with my belongings quite amusing Kenneth..
glad to hear your back in Boston.
thank god.

 

as for the whole 'i never loved anyone like i loved you' line you wrote
to be honest i laughed out loud at that..all by myself..
i smiled to myself..


and realized just how big of a piece of shit you truly were/are..
how through out our relationship you were lying to my face. breaking me down.
 how i wasted so much on you..


and to my so called 'friends' who thought it would be better for me to go around with a horrible boyfriend, who cheated on me constantly..to you 'friends'

 

fuck off.

 

 

good night.

satisfaction

 

 

this weekend eventful..

my life at this moment is quite wonderful..

 

 

 

 

i love the food network channel..

 

 

 

 

I am satisfied completely

 

 

 

<3

 

 

oh maybe.

 

 

i love when everything falls into place..
to be the number one woman in someone's life.
to be the pretty lady on the sidelines..
i love making all the boys envious of him..
it works both ways.

 

 

friday.a wonderful evening with a dark haired boy.
this weekend.steve miller band.sat.
the southern heat feels amazing on my skin.along with him.

 

 

 

 

jealous much?

 

 

 

 

<3

 

 

 

 

 

 

drag me away

 

 

if there's one thing that makes me sad..it's coming in from a night bein out/laughing/kissing/touching... and getting into a empty cold bed...

 

 

times like those are when i'm the loneliest.

 

 

work is hectic. i hate it.tired.

friday evening: girls night out ( mandy, lindsey..?).. sushi in south tampa.mcdintons' and la casa dulce..we are getting all fancied up..and struttin' our stuff..
saturday: beach with that wonderful lady mandy.
sunday: mama's day

 

 

okay i'm falling asleep as i type this.

 

 

i bid you g'nite

 

 

 

 

<3

 

 

 

baby boy

 

 

my sister had a baby boy yesterday..Cooper Everette Moore. If shes good at one thing, it's produceing some damn cute babies..

 

 

i took the day off today, to take care of the other boys..and catch up on laundry from this past weekend..

 

i plan to get quite giggily tomorrow for 5.5. eat salsa and be happy..

 

my body hurts.. more of the bottom half..ankles/calfs...i'm an ol' lady..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

your comments make me laugh..i told you so.fucking douche.
hahahahahahahahaha..rhdghjdriygerfjkhgdlukhgxjc,..../

 

 

 

 

 

i love my life right now..

 

 

 

<3

i do as i please..

 

 

 

stupid boy...

 

 

 

____________________________________________

the past four days were fabulous..sun kissed skin.salty lips.
vacations are never long enough.

 

 

 

now back to my busy fingers..beating heart. and tired eyes.

 

 

 

 

i don't feel like doing much of anything.
true love ain't that hard to find.
not that you will ever know
would you lay here for a while.
please do not let me go.
r.adams

 

 

 

<3

dont i hold you.

 

 

 

less than a week away....

 

i want to leave now.today.this minute.

 

carnival tonight/candy apples/cotton candy/ferris wheel/holding hands/staring/kissing/

 

selfish greed and pride..don't i.

 

 

 

brit

luck of the draw

 

 

i have been obsessed with bonnie raitt..

i am continually listening to her wonderful voice..crying/laughing/happy/in love

 

 

 

i am moving to an island to become a drunk bar maid..have a wonderful tan, and fish all day...

 

i am going to Boca grand in less than two weeks to fish/drunk/laugh/smile/hug/touch my heart out, with that wonderful dark haired boy..and i could not be more excited.

 

 

 

 

 

i am content..single...my eyes are heavy with you..and i can not drink you in enough. my tongue dances behind my lips with anticipation.

 

 

 

.

 

 

.,

 

 

...you love it

 

 

 

 

wonderful...

me.
everything.
family.

 

 

 

i love it.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

man eater

 

 

 

i have the most beautiful family ever....

 

 

 

\..

<3

 

 

she wants to play hearts...

 

 

 

i hate this cold weather...boooo.....

 

 

but i do love me a clean house, head, heart, etc....

 

 

i'm the broken toy for lonely boys..use once and destory..and go find some more.
i fell for you...why.i guess i wanted to play to.

 

 

 

 

 

you love it...

 

 

 

 

okay my little girl is craving for my attention..i must tend to her.

 

 

 

<3

keep it tight..

 

 

 

i love me some country dark haired light eyed boys..
The southern drawl coming from their lips..the slow smiles..

 

 

i am loving my life as always..


today is beautiful..
friday..and i'm in love.




now i must be on the hunt for some gold flip flops..


but all i really wanna do is lay around in the sun and drink you in..



<3

 

 

 

don't hate me..

 

 

and i love it..

 

 

 

what a glorious weekend...

 

 

 

 

why bother updating.. i have the memories in this little head and heart of mine..

 

 

 

 

<3

 

 

..lets face it

 

 

 

my heart is starting to seperate....

 

 

 

 

i love being able to not answer to anyone.. sip on red wine.. have wonderful meals with wonderful boys and strangers for that matter...
i love this weather, i love laying out all day on the beach, and soak it all in..
i needed this time.. for me. tired of proving myself to everyone. it's me.me.me.me for now...

 

 

 

 

i never knew how good it could feel...

 

 

 

i love how long my hair is..how it feels on my bare skin.. it's amazing.

 

 

okay i'm done.. i must go work my little bones.

<3

very proudof you/.

 

 

 

last night was quite wonderful...
watching boys throw darts into other drunk friends foot..my stomach still hurts..

today..cleaning..cleaning..cleaning...running..working out..loving
i'm alone mama dukes is outta town..so it's just me and the dogs.

sushi tonight..money maker shaking?

 

 

next weekend..supercross-orlando. St. Patricks day..
sunday - breakfast with lindsay at first watch..then off to the renaissance festival..

 

 

life could not be any better..i'm beyond happy with everything happening for me. who i have in my life, my family, friends...it's amazing.

 

 

 

/.,

reason to stay...

 

 

week was quite great..
pit bikes-wednesday.
shopping-friday
wonderful sushi and laughter w/ a wonderful boy + goodbye party for the deejay..-friday evening
ran my bones to death, and worked on my so called 'guns'- this morning..

soaked the filth off of me..

 

sunday brunch with a wonderful blonde, and perhaps a little shopping..who knows..

 

 

 

i'm too drunk to walk..carry me to my room..

 

 

 

 

i love me some goodnight kisses....

 

 

<3

 

 

tuesday morning..it feels like friday..oh how i wish it is...



i love the sunny weather..fuck the cold..

 

..it'll all work out..
don't you worry about that..
you made it all the easier.

 

better off with him..
then here with you.

 

 

 

<3

love it

...set things right.

..

.

 

i like going on dates.getting dressed up,the shy talking, and smiling.the goodbye kiss. it is a wonderful feeling i have not had in so long..
...weekend was wonderful...
went boating today..and got some much needed sun.

this week will be just as wonderful..
movies with Roger.wednesday. going away party for Deejay..Miami bound..nice kid.

 

coming weekend..boy scouting...and i'm not talking about no camp fire homo's.

i love how i can breath again..relief.
the sound of acoustic guitar is stringing through my head..i am in love.

 

 

 

 

<3

 

 

'..love dries up, i thought as i walked back to the bathroom, even faster than sperm..'
-bukowski- he always says it best.

 

.

you continued to go on and on how hard you tried to make me happy...
yet the second i'm gone, you have girls down your throat..or more so you down their throat...disgusting..
i'm angry now. hurt yesterday. today. angry. stupid that i believed the bullshit..

 

another notch on your belt eh. another entry in your little black book.write your little comment next to my name..make sure you spell it right. fuck you.
i wish you the best of luck with whatever the fuck you are doing. or whoever the fuck your doing.

i never needed this, you wonder why i was all pissy bitchy. it was you did you ever think. yeah we had our wonderful mornings when everything was right. but in the end, you were sneaking texting with fucking girls, and whoever else knows. i should have known the moment bobby warned me, or the fact that you talk dirty with your friends.. how fucking stupid i was..how i wasted so much time/money/heart. on you. I don't give a fuck anymore. about you. you are a horrible person and i hope i never have to see your face or anything related to you again.. you were angry when i did it..but i sensed a little bit of relievement from your end.. you don't have to put up with my shit anymore..

 

i don't care what you think of me now. how girls fuck you over. and over. not just in heart but in your bed..you think you try so hard blah blah..etc..etc..ha... yes you make up for the shit a time or two...but all in all it was nothing...you were feeling bad for all the shitty things you did.... i want to wash you away with everything..

 

you won't read this.. i'm well aware.. but i'm too fucking old now for myspace.. it's all drama.and i know i will only lurk..and get more angry at the fucking girls you have. so..why bother...save my self the trouble..this will be last time i speak/think/love of you.

 

 

you will miss me..that is for sure.
i hope your happy with what you have done.
i'm happy..semi..for finally sticking up for myself. doing what you always thought i never had the guts to do..well i did..and i can finally sleep at night, and not worry about what you are doing, why you haven't called....oh how wonderful it will be.

 

 

 

 

 

.

getting slower.

 

 

i'm listening to fleetwood mac..
uploading music to my ipod...
reading bukiwski-love is a dog from hell..
wearing my geeky retainer-my teeth ache..
i have bear socks on from alaska..
i'm pretty hot stuff right now..hince. retainer/bear socks.

 

i'm updating at an odd time.. i know..i thought i would surprise myself..go back to my old ways...

 

 

 

it's way past my bed time..goodnight.

 

 

 

love always,
b