well hello...

 

 

 

perhaps i have given up on this journal...

 

or not..

 

 

 

<3

 

 

new years eve..something to be excited about.

 

 

 

 

oh love.

breakfast at tiffany's always a classic movie..i adore it darlin'

work is so so busy..sheesh.. the days fly.
my birthday is past. wonderful
boys birthday weekend. <3

okay i must be off..




ciao.

give up

 i am with a customer..
 hold on i have a beep..
 can i give you a call back..
 i am slammed baby..
 too tired baby..
 your never happy baby..
 
love you baby
miss you



the extent of conversations i have with a certain boy.

 

i'm gonna go have coffee and lunch alone...have a nice day.
 

wake up darlin'

 

 

 

i want to remove every joint on my lower half..
my body/bones ache and i don't see it stopping anytime soon..

 

 

i haven't much else to update about..

i just want to sleep..sleep..sleep..and sleep some more..

terms

i don't think of terms of us...

i'm tired of waiting around...
tired of waiting by the phone.
waiting for you.


i'm turning a new leaf, no more jealousy..no more throwing a fit when i don't hear from you..


i will do what i want, with who and where...and possibly be too busy for you.
what ever will you do..

nothing..i'll get a simple...'have fun baby.'

heart attack.

my body aches from running it to death...literally


my toe feel as if it's broken..ow. going on for a week now


i crossed a black cats path tonight..i'm a tad bit paranoid.





please don't hurt me again.. i beg of you.

/.,,./

'i'm standing here with a broken heart about ready to slit my wrist..'

love it!

-Lucero wednesday...eeeeEeEe!. i'm beyond happy to see that boys face(lead singer)..
-I have pretty much have half days tomorrow and wednesday..due to a class i have to go to for work..

-i have the weekend to look forward to..
-i don't see boston for the the forth </3
-i love my daddy with everything i have..for all i know he hung the moon.
-i think i might plan a trip to coco beach...very soon..


- i can not complain...

i am fucking done with the bullshit..




i have something up my sleeves...
i am one sly devil...

hahahahahhahhahahahahahahhhaaa......

<3

 

are you nervous?

dearest mistake,

my heart isn't broken, and I'm not dead



i'm am bored...sitting home ..alone...on a friday evening..it's quite depressing...




cheer me up buttercup.

 

..all the reasons..

..step a little closer..
this is a lesson in fear.



'no day but today'


<3

..f..rfdg..gbn

kid you need to get over it and grow up..


and yes i'm speaking about you.

my vacation on the other hand was wonderful.
<3

lazy lover.

saturday, was probably one of the most fabulous days i have had in a very long time..
spent the evening with my mother went to dinner, then blue martini, then ended up at green iguana, and orpheum..All with my mother..no matter how much we fight, and get aggravated with each other. I am her daughter and would not want it any other way....


sunday-laid around, went to breakfast, laid around some more..i thought i might see a certain boy, but that was a sure let down..ofcourse.

i'm hungry and i'm craving a veggie pizza..really bad. Or olive pizza from pena rustica.


less then two weeks till the keys!! EeEeEeE!!!!


i'm done.
britni

summer heat.

i keep you jealously to myself.


give me griffin and sabine love affair. amazing.. read it over and over..

<3

cutting ties.

when you kiss me do you still taste her - are you thinking of - are you thinking of me with your lips pressed tightly up against his skin - Does your body still scream my name - can you take it - white i fake it - can i take it while i fake it - cross your heart - false your heart - cross your heart.






selfish bastard.

ex best.

i am sick to my stomach..


either from you..or something i ate....





exoh,
sleepyhead

the goodbye lover

 

so i love having tons of money in the bank..

but then bills come around and all my money slowly withdrawls..big negative.






theres nothing wrong with be lonely.. right? right...








someone buy me the Sabine & Griffin Trilogy..please please please. i'd give you a little piece of my heart if you did..well what little is left of it.





<3
britni

.fin

i'm going through the motions..
wake up, work, eat, sleep...
thats the extent of my life...


quite a bore i know..
but i'm content..


i don't think i fit in certain peoples life/future...
i know your not fond of me, no one is it seems..
i am testing myself... how far i can put up with things..i don't like feeling like this..


i'm done

.

 

i don't like feeling like i'm second best/choice.
someone who you can turn to when there's nothing else to do..
i don't like being told 'i will call'..
and what..no call..
gets old real quick.



this is a sure way to lose me...

shape up kid.

<3

.......

Love at first sight…le sigh*
your jealous...fucker




<3

still in my heart.

i spend far too much money on cds....

i have been eating nuts and berries all day...dried strawberrys/cranberries.....




i need a manicure/pedicure
i'm cravin oysters..
i want lola to be trained to not eat flowers anymore..


thats it.




<3

.every.day.

at work...

friday..making my way out to st.pete for st. patty's day...
saturday..Orlando supercross...
sunday..laying around basking in the sun..


i hate shopping for new a car...the whole sales run away.. pssh.. idiots.






i belong on a beach..down south, with hurricanes and all..any where but here, this grown up life of mine, i'm too young for this shit... i quit





<3

breath in..

....eh... could be better...

drowning my heart in alcohol this evening, and then burning my pale flesh tomorrow...


the weather outside is beautiful...



<3



..

..hard against the wall..

The Spill Canvas....Saturday

LUCERO....Sunday

i think that about completes my weekend..what more could a girl ask for...not a goddamn thing...





<3

/,.,castaway.,./

I am obsessed with smart water...

and addicted to cinnamon raisin mini bagels...




also, totally infatuated with a certain boy in my life...
my muse..




<3

...

 

and i'm spent..





<3

..monsters

+/-



+ four day weekends..

+ weather being above 70*

+ pay days...and i'm not talking about the candy bar..

- having milky white skin

+ the new matchbook romance c.d

+ pedicures

+ finding $100 in my glove box

- nasty spicy chicken from chik-fil-a in my tummy.....eck...

+ going to the keys in May..

- love

- pumping gas.... a waste of time..

+ caffine/coffee/expresso !!!!!!!

 

 

thee end...
<3

..lust

i want to be flesh and bones...




i believe i'm going in about two weeks to start the first peice of my half sleeve..

i'm living off of chai tea..

i have to go to court on monday....yay..




i'm obsessed with Ryan Adams..




<3

let me be..

 

it's wonderful to think i finally have a valentine worth while..
i see now alot of realationships were jokes..
minus one..roger.

it is an amazing feeling to feel things towards someone, and them be able to tell you. To know your not crazy for being this crazy, head over heels for them..i'm not quite sure what i did to deserve this...i guess all the shitty relationships are making up for it..


all in all i'm in total complete awe...

______________________________________________

+tonight+
yoga
3 miles
bed.


<3

i only...

stunt wars..
work
busy

sleep


goodbye.

your fault...

nose over tail for you...





<3

..stinky...

;
'





i'm sleepy..

and i'm craving sweets really bad..


gym tonight..
sleep
repeat.
.


'





,.


.
.
.

.....eEeEe...

i could not be happier...
day off tomorrow..
great boy..
fin..

 

 

 

 

Roger i love when you don't talk to me.. hence the sarcasm

...amour

things are quite amazing...

i'm not spilling my heart over this thing...
too many prying eyes...

you can't lose something you never had..

 

and to you sir.. it's disturbing to hear you scream, and call me easy..i could throw some words your way..but i'm a little more grown up/civil then that...i was embarassed for you. Your poor girlfriend to be in the middle..for that..I'm sorry.

heavy breathing

This weekend looks promising..

tonight-in great company with a lovely kid
tomorrow-gasparilla with a lovely kid
sunday-beach ditto..


8 out 10 days ain't bad..

__________________________________

i am being a horrible so called friend i know.... it could be worse..





<3

...da..da...damn

sometimes you have to be a selfish asshole to get what you want...
including myself....



here's another kick in the face...
forgive me..

i'm sorry it will be the way it is, between you two....

perhaps we will cross paths one morning...


<3

 

boo..

i'm good.. hard at work..


a month from now.. i want to be in this place with no drama..
things are going good for me..eh..well almost good..

boy situation....eh....i am pacing myself.


thee end..


brit

boys.

I'm upset that it's ended..
but i feel as if a burden as been lifted off my chest.
friends? perhaps.. I shall miss him
but now i shall move on to something more wonderful



usually in this situation. (the ending of a relationship) i would throw myself into another one as quick as i can,so i can forget that person faster, and move on with my life.but i dont think i'll be doing that this time.. Time alone is needed i believe....










<3

..laugh...

 

i wish i would just get over you already.....

then i wouldn't feel so guilty about thinking of you..

i don't want you thinking i'm unhappy..but what is closer to the truth?





cause blue eyes your the secret i keep...
<3






It looks like fall outside..the trees are finally changing. I want to be in bed right now, sleeping, and being lazy..

...hello/goodbye....

Thank you

i do love to hang out with you *sigh*
i dreamt about you all last night. It was wonderful
Highlight of my week is..this Thursday. and Sunday- when i get to hang out with you..



i am ridiculous i know.. i shouldn't be saying this or feeling this..
sorry




I'm going to hell for this...





britni